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9 Days Out Of 10


Wednesday, October 24, 2012

I feel like I am always flailing. Always struggling. It never gets easier. I get busier. I just go up and up. And can't turn it around.

I get lazy. I get tired and want that extra 1 hour and 7 minutes of sleep more than I want to lose the weight. I want to eat what everyone else it. I want a convenient meal (which is pretty much always higher in calories). I struggle to stay in calorie ranges. I struggle to get to the gym. I struggle to drink enough water. I struggle to take my meds. I struggle.



Today I packed my gym bag in advance (so, maybe it had been in my car since Saturday) and I got to the gym for my weekly spin class with 15 minutes to spare. I started rummaging through to change and low and behold ... no pants. Ack! So I ran into my spin instructor on the way out and told him the story (which is funny if you think about it ... who packs a gym back with no shorts/pants, but remembered to put socks in it? ... a girl doing laundry. That's who!) And then I went home. But you know what I did??

I went to another class one hour later. Now. The class sucked. It was max-cardio, but it wasn't. The instructor wasn't very good. The workout wasn't that great. I didn't enjoy it. BUT. I was there. I went. I was present.

I just really need something to turn around. Well. A lot of somethings. I am working on it, but man I need help. I am going to go running on Saturday (as a side note, I will be travelling all day Friday to go home and see my family for the first time since July!!). I am undecided about tomorrow. I have a pretty big test on Friday. But I think if I skip out of school a bit earlier than I usually do, I can get in a 30 minute jog or elliptical session, have a quick shower and get right back to studying.



UGH.

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ALLI1358 10/25/2012 4:49PM

    Risking sounding like a broken record, that's totally awesome that you went to another cardio class when you missed the first one. I showed up for a class right when it was finishing once and I thought "Oh well. Guess I'll go next week." Kudos to you.
And hang in there. I just had 3 weeks where despite my diet and exercise I just kept gaining. Sometimes you just have to wait for the body to balance itself out to see the results you deserve. Now I'm back losing again slowly but surely.
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GOLOPTIOUS 10/25/2012 11:27AM

    The fact that you went back for another class makes you a RockStar. And it shows that you are changing.

We all struggle, every day. There are days when I don't drink any water. There are days when I think "Eh......208 isn't TOO bad, maybe I'll just stay at this weight". But what makes us different is that even though we have moments and days where everything spins out of control, we don't give up. The next day we're back to working hard. The next meal we do better.

You struggle, but you keep pushing.

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KT-NICHOLS-13 10/25/2012 1:08AM

    Hi.
First, good for you for pushing forward. Good for you for attending a class & sticking it out even though it wasn't quit right.
Second, I know how you feel, always trying & possibly wanting something different.
Third, you may already know this ... Sleep is a vital component of losing weight so don't short yourself.
Last, try a few short strength training sessions to boost what you're doing.

Love your determination & drive.

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