I am very proud of myself
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Yesterday, my surviving twins birthday (his twin passed away six hours after being born), which is usually the worst day of the year for me. For the past eight years, on that day I am a combination of grief, sadness, depression for the son I lost, but I'm also grateful and happy to be able to celebrate the day with my surviving son, my miracle baby.
Yesterday started off tough, but by party time I was able to be fully present in the moment! I was there 100% with my surviving son. I realized that it's ok to give Michael a great day and I was able to do so without guilt.
I took me several years to come to grips with everything that happened and to learn by living in the moment, it in no way lessens the memory of Anthony and I think he would want his mamma to be there in whole for his twin on their special day.