Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Before I posted my first blog entry, I typed and deleted and typed and deleted because I was so nervous about posting. I am insecure, and I always worry what others will think of me. When I walk into a room, I feel that everyone there is judging me. I went away with one of my closest friends for a Halloween party, and on the way, we talked a lot about life issues. One thing we discussed was how I was feeling anxious about the friends of our friend who was hosting the party. I told her I was sure that they would all judge me, and she told me, "They don't pay your bills. They don't give you shelter or food. They give you nothing. Why would you care what they think?" She was right, and though it did not take away the anxiety completely, it felt great to know someone was in my corner and rooting me on. Well, those feelings I had that then are similar to the feelings I had about posting my first blog. Again, I have been relieved of some of the anxiety thanks to those who seem to be in my corner and are rooting me on, I really feel that this is the right place to be.