Tuesday, October 23, 2012
I disappeared, I know but let me tell you what happened. I had finals in school but not just your typical finals before a new semester type thing, nope, these were the last finals ever at my college. That is right, I finally graduated college with my A.A in Paralegal Studies. Two long years of working 40 hour weeks, while attending class 12 hours a week and balancing homework/studying on my very little down time finally came to a stop.
But then, something bad happened. I became a couch potato. It was like after two long years of busting my ass to lose weight, balance work and school, it all just exhausted me. I started getting home from work and watching TV. Pretty soon I noticed I was eating high carbs again and suddenly I stopped wanting to go out to do anything. I would tell myself every day, we are going to work out and then I just wouldn't.
I lost my motivation.
I stopped really doing my hair, or carefully picking out my outfits, I stopped sleeping for 8 hours or working out or eating even remotely healthy. I unraveled and I don't know why!
I gained back 7 pounds. After hitting my all time low and below 300 pounds 2 weeks ago, 299. All of a sudden my skin is no longer clear but breaking out. All of a sudden my face looks fatter to me. All of a sudden my clothes that were loose are starting to feel slightly tighter. I can't move as fast or do as much without tuckering out. My ankles slightly hurt again. WOW what a difference 7 pounds and a high carb diet has made.
But each day is a chance to start again. So today, I start again. I am back to tracking my food, eating low carb and working out 5-6 days a week. I have an exercise schedule, my walk to run program is starting again, walks with the dogs, yoga, meditation and zumba on Thursdays. Now that I have the time to concentrate on working out, I need to get off the couch and make the effort.
Time to move on, push forward and start liking what I see in the mirror again!!!