Trying to fan the flame
Monday, October 22, 2012
My SparkCoach assignment tonight is: Think about the last "mistake" you made that left you feeling upset or off track. Now re-frame that event as a learning opportunity. What did it teach you? How can you be better going forward?
The big stumble tonight was cookies after dinner. I thought the big bad was going to Wendy's to pick up dinner for the guys. At the last minute I switched from some gooey bacon mushroom burger to a grilled asiago chicken sandwich. Not phenomenal, but the first time I think I have ever ordered a chicken sandwich grilled instead of "homestyle". It wasn't that great, but I can tell it was much better than the other options.
But on to my "learning opportunity". If there are cookies in the house, I will eat them. Period.
We had a party at our house over the weekend, and everyone brought food and then left it. Fortunately I was so tired at the end of the night (wee hours of the morning) I forgot to put several things into the fridge even though they had been put into containers. So, no munching for the next couple of days on my infamous cream cheese dip. :( and :). I was so disappointed, but it's for the best.
The right thing to do would be to throw away the cookies. I don't know that I am that brave, but I can at least account for them and that should slow me down a bit. I accounted for everything that I could remember today, which was a tad shaming, but I feel better for having done it.
I still really struggle with dinners. I want a dinner I can just eat and forget. Sometimes I really resent having to be the food planner and cooker. I would honestly just prefer a TV dinner and be done with it. But that's not the deal we have. Home cooked dinner is healthier, except for the fact that I still don't have the portion control thing down. Hate that. Maybe someday I can find a way to do it more happily - with a fun set of measuring tools instead of the mishmash hodgepodge of tupperware type measuring cups in my drawer that are a bitch to clean.
I did 15 minutes of exercise today and as long as I get at least that in again tomorrow, I will be back on track.
PS - Saw a blog post about a woman who honestly reported when she went too far and became obsessed with her weight loss and she showed pics. It was hard to see her "before" pics looking something like what I want my "after" pics to be. I know it's detrimental to compare myself to others. Just so very, very hard not to...