Monday, October 22, 2012
Lately if I am not certain whether I am sincerely hungry, I do a little yoga or running, since those are activities that quickly put me in touch with my body because they feel good to do on an empty stomach-- very little else feels good. I have 20-minute yoga podcasts, and yoga puts me in touch with my Higher Power very quickly. If I am still hungry after these activities, then I eat without any remorse or guilt. I usually eat a piece of fruit with a little almond or peanut butter.
Yoga and meditation are my super-weapons. I have decided that the feeling of satiety is heaven, and that the feeling of a black-hole void inside is hell.
I recently heard an addict talking about how getting quiet inside was like trying to approach a deer in the woods; you have to be still as possible, and watchful and patient, and then you get the magical experience of being close to this incredible being. That is how I feel about Higher Power; it happens when you are still and silent and watchful for the magical, peaceful moment of communion. Unfortunately, it seems to be just as fleeting!