Sunday, October 21, 2012
Well, I sure felt horrible by the end of the day yesterday. I started the day by unloading the car from my mom's trip to Maine and then had to put it all away. The list I made at the end of the evening to make myself feel good about what I did was 25 items long... no wonder I was tired, feeling very vulnerable and unappreciated.. it included vacuuming the whole house, and it's a big house.. mopping 3 rooms, kitchen alone is 15X13 ft., and doing laundry, and cleaning bathrooms, doing dishes and making lunch mom do the dishes while I was outside helping brother today. I should have had my cell phone and taken a pic cuz he was ~40 feet up in the air boarding up an old barn... he needed me there (on the ground) watching... not that I could have done anything except be the first to call 911 any faster.... but she also cooked supper, and I gave mine to the dog...
I've been doing a lot of emotional eating lately, I am sure it's going to cost me on the scale... not good...too much stress and time for me to take back control of my life and not allow others to be controlling me in this way again....
today, I got to enjoy time with my great niece and nephew... he's 6 mths. and so cute and happy and smiley and she is 3 and talking a lot more to me, even shared here chair with me today and we went walking and she took my hand and we walked down to the piles of potatoes and dirt and I taught her to sing "I'm the King of the CAstle and You're the Dirty Rascal... as she ran up and down the piles getting me to help her down.
back to class tomorrow..
p.s. I did take the time to take a nice long walk, and also a bubble bath....so not a total loss.