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Sunday, October 21, 2012

Have had to really have a good talk with myself.
I discovered that laziness/don't care is a major attitude lately. I've felt so pushed down, pressured, and "expected to be perfect" that I have said the heck with it all... I reached a real wall. The good thing about "talking the talk" and acting "as if" is that it truly will sink in eventually, and there will be a wake up call you cannot ignore, or an epiphany that will not be put aside.
My Epiphany happened last Monday night. No need to go into details. Let's just say I had an unusual experience. Like none before.
I have spent the week writing in my journal trying to get a grasp on my life.
It has taken until today for me to feel like my SP routines are falling back into place. I have my nutrition tracked, and stayed to my plan. I am drinking my water. I am exercising, just 10-15 minutes, but it is enough for now.
My goal is to make it through today.
I will not give up.
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  • _LINDA
    That feeling would be called being overwhelmed. You have a lot on your plate to deal with. At one point you just reach your limit and something had to give. Trying to live a healthy lifestyle is hard. It takes work, real, hard work. Its the easiest thing to give up when things get rough. That is why there are so many people who are emotional eaters on here. Its easier to give in then keep fighting. But the bottom line is, if you stick with it, you will really feel better, more able to cope with what life is throwing at you. You will feel good about yourself. Its not about being perfect every single day. Its about trying your best each day and if it doesn't work tomorrow is another day.
    You CAN do this Leah. Because you are so WORTH it!
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    1951 days ago
    Ah yes, the routine, the working out and the tracking food and the good behaviour sometimes drives me crazy.

    I do take mini breaks....
    1951 days ago
    Oh, lovely, my dear! I hope all is well. And I understand trying to be perfect! It has already caused me 2 nervous breakdowns, so I know I cannot expect perfection from myself.

    And at least you talked to yourself instead of talking to that dang Wall, because Wall NEVER listens! Wall is where I am going to start throwing fat at so it will know that I am not joking and that Wall needs to get out of my way!

    We have already had one accidental fire this week, so Wall needs to know I will set it on fire if it doesn't give me my space.

    I hope you can kick Wall's booty like I am having to do. Stay fierce, stay strong, and focus on today. Just today, and just those 10-15 minutes.

    I'm cheering for you all the way!

    Peace and Love, Angela
    1951 days ago
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