Sunday, October 21, 2012
Have had to really have a good talk with myself.
I discovered that laziness/don't care is a major attitude lately. I've felt so pushed down, pressured, and "expected to be perfect" that I have said the heck with it all... I reached a real wall. The good thing about "talking the talk" and acting "as if" is that it truly will sink in eventually, and there will be a wake up call you cannot ignore, or an epiphany that will not be put aside.
My Epiphany happened last Monday night. No need to go into details. Let's just say I had an unusual experience. Like none before.
I have spent the week writing in my journal trying to get a grasp on my life.
It has taken until today for me to feel like my SP routines are falling back into place. I have my nutrition tracked, and stayed to my plan. I am drinking my water. I am exercising, just 10-15 minutes, but it is enough for now.
My goal is to make it through today.
I will not give up.