Day 21, disordered life...
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Did you or do you have any disordered eating habits - binging, purging, excessive calorie restriction or excessive exercise? How did develop (or how are you developing) a healthier relationship with food?
I am a night binger. After all have gone to bed, by myself, in the dark, I will eat. usually, I crave protein, and find myself eating hotdogs. Another binge food is granola bars. I've tried various treatments over the years. I've done talk therapy, drug therapy and personal journalling. I've tried lots of little tricks. I put leftovers away right after dinner, and close the kitchen for the night. I added a third snack, and plan to eat something with my insulin. I brush my teeth, and rinse with mouthwash. I've finally have a bathroom that doesn't require walking through the kitchen. All of that helps, but I still have the late night issue. I kid myself, that if I didn't have to buy hotdogs for the boys, and banana and granola bars for the princess, I wouldn't have access and wouldn't binge. But I know, I realize that there is something mental about this, something emotional. Sometimes, if seems like I binge after I have had a really good day, and cant take the success. Sometimes, it's low blood sugar, and I need to learn to manage my levels better. Sometimes, it's like I lack the off button, and once I start eating, I can't stop. I am working on it. I read through the message thread about learning selfcontrol, and I know that I can over come this. I hope to establish a streak of no eating after the last snack.