Saturday, October 20, 2012
Tomorrow is another day of blogging and planning my food and working through issues. i keep remembering that this is how i will create my destiny, this is how i will heal from previous issues with compulsive eating. i do acknowledge that i have an eating disorder. i do acknowledge that the eating disorder has made me uncontrollable desire to eat when i'm happy or sad or upset. i also know that this has affected my life and my way of life for many years. i forgive myself for allowing this eating disorder to control me and am now wanting to rid myself of it through prayer, journals, honesty, and daily admittance of my need to not control this. i haven't been successful yet. i need to keep getting support from my group and by writing out my feelings whenever possible. if not possible, i will voice record them.