Saturday, October 20, 2012
Today is the last day of the DG seasonal challenge. In some ways it seems like the time flew, in others it feels like it was forever.
What did I learn during these past 16 weeks? A lot, and not all of it related to my health goals.
I took a lot of time during this challenge to work on some important emotional issues. I realized that there is still a lot of anger in me from my past. I decided to let go of those people who didn't have the time for me, and to quit acting like they are important when in all reality I was holding on to them for the drama that I've always had in my life. It's time for my world to start being peaceful and focused. It has slowly been getting that way, but by relieving myself of certain people it has become even more so.
I also took the time to start being more gentle with myself when it comes to my emotions. So much of my weight is here because of my wonderful ability to suppress everything. This has not been a pleasant experience, but it has helped me feel lighter.
As far as my lifestyle goals, I've also learned a lot. I'm not as tired as I used to be. I know it's because I am eating better, exercising more and having more fun.
I learned that there are days, and sometimes weeks when I need to do nothing more than take care of myself. If I'm tired, sleep. I don't beat myself up for not working out when I can barely keep my eyes open.
I'm faster than I was a year ago. Monday thru Friday I do a mile walk up two very steep hills in order to catch the bus so I can go to work. Last year when I did this, it was killing me even without working out. This year, once I get up that first hill I feel like I'm soaring. My pace picks up and I get to my bus stop much faster. I'm also not as sore once the walk is done.
I also learned that when I push myself, I surprise myself. Again, last year I felt as though I just couldn't exercise after doing that walk in the mornings. This year I am walking, doing Zumba for Wii twice a week and riding my exercise bike another three days out of the week. It feels good. I'm always a little achy after my workouts, but not nearly as bad as I made myself believe I would be. I also do my ST three times a week still, and it feels great!
I come first. As great as it is to have the weekly challenges and compete against other teams, I have to remember to put myself first. The last challenges I forgot that and was more intent on making sure that my team got points. I'd then feel guilty if I didn't get enough points or lose enough weight. This time I made sure to keep the focus on me.
And I also lost more weight than I had set my goal as. I lost three inches.
I feel much more successful this round than the past ones.