Friday, October 19, 2012
I exercised this morning, and it left me feeling pretty good with the endorphin rush. I had a hard, hard, hard time doing it though. I set my alarm for 6:30, but I don't think I got up until almost 7:15. But, eventually I did. Got up, did my morning stuff, ate breakfast (Greek yogurt and huckleberries.) I have been house sitting for my aunt, so had planned to go home and exercise when I took care of my cat.
But, I locked my keys in the car. In the time it took for mom to come save me with her spare key, I got on the treadmill at my aunt's. And here's where I'm dismayed. I definitely chose to not push myself, completely talked myself out of it. This treadmill, like many, has a function where it can give you a set plan for your run, increasing speed or incline at various intervals. I got to running at 5.5 mph. I could see on the screen in front of me that it planned to make me run a minute at 6.0 and a minute at 6.5, before dropping back down at 0.5 mph increments. And, I all of a sudden decided I couldn't. Without any real thought, I told myself that 5.5 was my max, that there's no way I could run 6.5 mph for a full minute, and 6.0 was pushing it. This was partially motivated by the fact that I was short on time, but the feeling of "can't do it" was definitely there and even if I'd had the time I don't think I'd have done it. But, I may well have been able to do it. I was feeling decently enough at 5.5 mph, had held that for two minutes.
I dunno. I'll have to allow more time for it next time and see if I can't overcome this feeling. I also did some strength training on my arms, but am unimpressed. I can never seem to push myself hard enough in ST, which is partially why I don't like it. My triceps, which are sissy, felt it, but nothing else, at 10 lbs. I did high reps, but I really don't think I like high reps. I don't think I see the point. I don't believe anymore that I'll bulk up unattractively. And I want to be strong. I want to be able to lift heavy things. So why not do heavier weights for fewer reps and build some good looking muscle?
Anyway. I still feel good because of the endorphins, and it's been easy to focus and commit to work. But I really need to push harder.