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In Search Of Excellence...

Friday, October 19, 2012

After the reflection from yesterday, I believe that this was my a-ha moment. I have had many such moments along the way. This I feel is the biggest one yet. It is what drives me. The resounding YES, the I CAN, The WHY behind the WHAT. If the why cannot be defined, the what and the how are mostly impossible or whatever was achieved wont last very long.

There has always been a push from deep within to go harder, faster, further and I never really defined why. Like I said earlier, is this some crazy form of middle aged madness, am I out to prove something, to show off, or is it bigger than all of that? I am convinced that if my reasons are light, egotistical pursuits of vain glory then all will fall flat.

This is so much bigger, so big in fact that I think that the souls hunger and search for personal excellence, the recognition of this desire, and ultimately the outlet for it, is the deciding factor on whether dreams will be realized or if they will be just that, dreams, fantasies that come and go during the musings of an idle mind.

This, to me is about living more and more in that state of who I am when I am out there, getting in touch with "the other guy" that lives within. Maybe I like him more than I like myself at times.

He is strong, determined, unstoppable, full of courage and confidence. A warrior.

I think every culture has, in its roots, some form of coming of age, of initiation, the rite of passage. I feel that all that I have done has been, in some form, a rite of passage in becoming the man I was meant to be. A trial by fire of sorts. The focus, adversity, the endurance as a fire that purges the junk from my soul, its weakness and leaves me stronger than I was when I started.

Yesterday, I swam 1 mile+ at the Y. I did around 46 laps in 45 minutes. 11 laps is a quarter mile. Around March of this year when I started trying to swim, I could make 2 laps without having to hang on the side of the pool catching my breath. Also, that mile was done without a push off. I turned and free floated in place so to get the best simulation of a steady consistent swim without a push off assist.

I would call that progress.

I feel so good about what I am doing, I was born to do this.

until later..... whatever you do, make it EPIC.
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    Wow- great post! It is my challenge now to find that warrior within. I have all the knowledge and know how, but I have to connect that with the power within.
    1368 days ago
    Oh I love to swim ! My pace is about the same as yours. Wanna share a lane sometime? emoticon
    1369 days ago
  • v JEM0622
    Way to go on your swimming! When I first started, it was a struggle also. I couldn't believe I could run miles but then had so many challenges with the swim. The best thing I did was take a skills class with a local guy who has a 25 meter pool in his back yard. Best money ever spent. Gave me focus, skill drills, and I had confidence. Very much needed when you are training for a multi sport event.
    1370 days ago
    A mile swim? Wow! Good job!

    I have two weeks off with no training at all. Then, first of November my next 52-week training plan kicks off with Prep and Base Phases. This thing we are doing...this search for excellence...becomes almost an addiction. I can't fully comprehend two weeks without a workout...but the hard lesson for me will be respecting my body enough to give it this planned allow it to heal completely and prepare for a new season and a new type of training plan.

    So complicated...even the rest phases. Are we nuts or what?
    1371 days ago
    Go big or go home, brother. emoticon
    1371 days ago
  • v COOKIE_AT_51
    Amazing emoticon
    1371 days ago
    1372 days ago
    It's all about endorphins, and what's wrong with that!? :)
    1372 days ago
    Born to be an inspiration in the midst of discovering yourself...very blessed to know you emoticon
    1372 days ago
  • v GINA180847
    Reading your blogs is like watching a person finally become all they can be and it is amazing to be allowed to watch from the side lines. Bless you my friend and let the Almighty keep urging you to lead us all to be the best we can be.
    1372 days ago
    That is awesome that you swam that much!!

    You are pursuing excellence and you are EXCELLENT!
    1372 days ago
  • v BILL60
    Hang tough, my friend.
    1372 days ago
    I really enjoy reading your blogs. I find you so fantastically motivating! You always give me something to reflect on. Thank you. :)
    1372 days ago
    Ok, I will :)
    1372 days ago
    Progress? No. It's passion. It's being YOU and doing what you are meant to do. People spend their lives searching for what makes them whole. What makes them feel truly alive. You are so, so blessed to have found it. And even more blessed to live it, breathe it and do it. That is EPIC.
    1372 days ago
  • v LINDAK25
    A rite of passage is a good way to look at it, especially when that passage changes you into someone you really like!

    Wow, you really improved on your swimming! How far do you have to swim for the Ironman?

    1373 days ago
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    1373 days ago
  • v MISSLISA1973
    You're awesome.
    1373 days ago
    That is definitely progress!! Phenomonel progress!! I commend you for digging deep within yourself to ask the hard questions and search for the answers.
    1373 days ago
    Your swim time is stellar! I really need to work on my swimming technique, breathing... the works. Did you use you-tube videos or something else? I would like to make some progress but I'm really like a fish out of water.

    1373 days ago
    Total agreement here. Go get 'em! emoticon
    1373 days ago
    Awesome it is!! emoticon
    1373 days ago
  • v 123ELAINE456
    Awesome!!! WAY TO GO!!! You Can Do IT. You are doing GREAT!!! God Bless You and Have a Wonderful Week. Have a Super Good Day!!! Takr Care.
    1373 days ago
  • v BUDRFLY31
    I loved your blog. I am doing a lot of soul searching today, and your words are a great start.

    I have just started swimming. I am taking a few lessons. Today, at the pool, I watched some of these swimmers pound lap after lap, not needing to stop. It was mesmerizing. I have to stop at every end for 10 seconds. I actually count it out loud. However, it's down from 20 seconds rest that I had to do 3 weeks ago (is that Epic?). Every victory counts! I really think I have the breathing thing down and am rotating my body much more than I used to. I go by time, instead of distance right now. Because one, I do not have the ability to count without losing my place (ever since I turned 40, things like this are just out the door!), and two because I don't want to judge myself for the amount I do. Not knowing how far I swim right now is better. As I improve, I will attempt to start counting.

    I like your answer... I will have to really think about this some more.

    Have a EPIC weekend!

    1373 days ago
    Great! emoticon
    1373 days ago
  • v COOP9002
    Way to go! Thanks for sharing your progress.
    1373 days ago
  • v TRILLIUM22
    That is great progress on your swimming. Skipping the push off, now that takes discipline.
    1373 days ago
    Robert - I am so glad you had your ah-ha moment.
    1373 days ago
  • v LYNSEY723
    Gosh, I just love your blogs. You are amazing.

    1373 days ago
    Your sentence, "The resounding YES, the I CAN, The WHY behind the WHAT" really caught my attention. If it is okay I will borrow it to journal today. Okay now I will continue reading your blog!

    Epic, yes that is what I want and will do. I am doing this. I believe most epics are about the next step and the next. It reminds me of a story I heard about this lady who planted flower bulbs everyday (to each their own right?) Anyway, after doing this for years, she ended up with a mountain that bloomed. That is epic.

    So it is the one more lap today attitude that becomes epic! Thank you for your blog.
    1373 days ago
    I think, if this were just some fleeting form of superficial middle aged insanity, it wouldn't actually be this goal; your "passion" would be something equally superficial, relatively easily achieved. You have been building toward this goal for a while now, and it is one which takes a hell of a lot of physical AND mental preparation. The mid-life crisis guy might wake up and out of the blue say "I'm going to be an Iron Man" and you know exactly where that guy will end up.

    You're not that guy.

    You've been working towards this because it is what you want, for YOU. So what if there is some ego involved in the decision...your reasons are sound and, again, you're doing it for YOU, not to impress the rest of the world.

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    1373 days ago
  • v KCWIND
    Woot! Woot! Good for you! Thanks for the reminders. I am returning after a rough patch. Thanks for sharing!
    1373 days ago
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