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My own personal Jiminy Cricket.

Friday, October 19, 2012

V started her new day therapy school today. I am nervous. Hoping for the best and jumping through hoops to have all the required paperwork done. I am just going to relax, go with the flow, and know that she is in the best place she could possibly be right now. She had a great final day at the school yesterday, and the kids all wrote her "miss you" cards.

I spoke with the dance instructor last night. She told me that she believes that DQ (my eldest) is a natural, and she is very happy that we made the decision to move her to the competition team. She feels she will flourish there. That made me feel good. I have been glowing... So proud of both of my daughters.

The girls got to go skating last night in celebration of all of their accomplishments. It was a school sponsored skating party (the school has them once a month), and they truly had a blast!

Once this weekend has come and gone, I SHOULD have all my sewing done. I will then begin to focus on my exercise again. Just in time for the new Bahama Mamas/DONE Girl challenge, Falling For Fitness! WOO HOO! I am excited to start this challenge, and I hope it will help me stay on track through the very difficult binge eating period... THE HOLIDAYS.

When we got home yesterday (keep in mind... I was gone from 7:45a-8:30p) I still had not had any dinner. I began looking through the cabinets for something to eat. There was a box of Betty Crocker Au Gratin potatoes.

When I lived alone... before I became a custodial auntie/mommy... I would make a box of those. I would eat about 1/2 of it, put the rest in the fridge, then consume the other half the next evening. I grabbed the box out, and told M I was making myself some potatoes. This is how that convo went:
M: Those are for dinner next week.
Me: But.... I am hungry.
M: I bought salads, and all kinds of dressing. Eat a salad.
Me: emoticon
M: You told me you wanted to eat healthier, so I packed the fridge with fruits and veggies, and you haven't eaten them once this week.
Me: I do need to eat healthier.... but I really want these potatoes....
M: They are for dinner next week.
Me: I'll buy another box before next week.
M: emoticon
Me: I don't like salads. What am I supposed to eat? Just lettuce? That is all I see in the fridge.
M: Put some carrots and lunchmeat and salad dressing on it.
Me: Lunch meat isn't healthy either. So much sodium. And I don't really like meat right now.
M: Then put some chickpeas on it. It's up to you. You eat what you want. But you are the one who said you need to lose weight.
Me: emoticon I'm so hungry.... salad won't fill me up. I WANT potatoes.
M: You do what you want. I can't tell you what to do.
He then walks away.

I then stand there and stare at the Betty Crocker box of goodness. Mmmmmm potatoes. Would only take 20 minutes. Then I can gorge myself on buttery, creamy, potato deliciousness. I get a pot out from the cabinet and set it on the stove. I open the fridge to get some butter out.

There sits the box of salad. There sits the four different varieties of salad dressing (he knows I don't like salad dressing and he is trying to give me a wider array of things to try). Daggone it! I want potatoes.

I toss the Betty Crocker box back in the cabinet. I make myself a grilled ham and cheese sandwich, and pile a big ole salad on the side of the plate. I sit down with M in the living room to watch Dexter and begin eating my "healthy" dinner, when all I wanted was a box of potatoes. The salad tastes pretty good. The grilled ham/cheese satisfies my creamy craving.

He was right. I know in my heart he was right. I was better off eating that healthy dinner. Better off not giving into that craving. Is it wrong that I dreamt about eating potatoes au gratin last night? I will beat this. Good thing I have M in my corner.

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    lol! I dream about food all the time day and night! I was day dreaming of a huge chocolate cake after getting off the phone with verizon yesterday. :/
    You'll get there! And for God's sake, throw that box out and go get yourself some real potatoes! LOL!
    1948 days ago
    I am glad things are falling into place for you. You deserve some peace of mind and rest.

    I love the conversation....
    and looking forward to the challenge this fall as well.

    We Bahama Mamas are awesome!

    This challenge we are going to rule and I am counting on you girlfriend!
    Hope you have a wonderful weekend.
    Much love and light to you and yours.
    1948 days ago
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    Glad the girls had a good time skating I have not done that in years and when I was a teenager I used to "live" there haha. What a great guy M is, he completely supports you in your journey. Hope everything went good for V at the new school today.
    1948 days ago
    What a conversation emoticon it's great that you have support to help remind of everything you want to achieve. Honestly, when I have that conversation with myself, the potatoes win, so maybe I will try it your way and have someone help keep my accountable. Keep on making great choices! emoticon
    1948 days ago
    I'm so glad the girls are doing so well!! I wish I had your Jiminy Cricket!! My husband is so bad he would have made the potatoes for me. Congrats for making the right choice!! emoticon
    1948 days ago
    If I am OK to dream of Starbucks and The Peanut Butter Company's White Chocolate Wonderful pb, neither of which I can get where I live now...then yes, you are definitely OK to dream of potatoes. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Not quite the right emoticons but you get the idea.
    1948 days ago
    That must have been so hard! But you did it! You made the healthiest choice! emoticon Keep breathing the weekend is almost here, and our new challenge will get us to the new year feeling proud!
    1948 days ago
    Awe you have a great Jiminey Cricket! And yes its ok you dreamt of creamy goodness. I think we all do!

    I am glad to hear your girls are doing well and you too!

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    1948 days ago
    Love your blog! Good for you resisting.

    1948 days ago
    I face those temptations all the time too. I find that lentils are prety good on the salad or canned tuna. I also like boiled eggs on the salad. Yesterday I put the salad greens on the plate and plopped a piece of salmon I just cooked on top which wilted it a little and added a bit of flavor from the salmon. I didn't use any dressing at all. I am going to device more meals where you plop the protein directly on the salad because that is a great way to get the salad without the dressing--at least it is for me.
    1948 days ago
    What a nice guy. It's so good to tell people about goals so they hold you accountable.
    1948 days ago
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