Friday, October 19, 2012
I appear to be back in my groove, which is nice...
I hate that I let others' needs, schedules, etc. interfere with my agenda. I need to be better about sticking up for myself.
Plus, it didn't help that I was feeling physically miserable on top of all that.
I seem to be past it, though, and happy to be back in somewhat of a routine.
I think I'm also feeling somewhat of a reignited motivation because I have found an adult ballet class that works on somewhat of a drop-in basis... meaning it will, at least for the short term, accommodate my schedule. I think this is good because if I decide I really like it (pretty sure I will!), I can get a good foundation and then maybe switch to a regular, more curriculum-based class... and then, go en pointe.
I will be the oldest, fattest woman en pointe, ever.
But it's a dream of mine ever since I was a little girl - to take ballet, and to go en pointe - but I was told I was too "hippy" for ballet. That's "hippy" and not "hippie" - though I do fit both categories in that I am the very definition of hourglass-shaped AND I am earthy-crunchy-granola-peace-l
It's stupid, too, to think that I was ever denied the opportunity to take ballet because of that. I suppose it might be different if I'd wanted to be a career ballerina, but no! I just wanted to dance beautifully to the beautiful music.
Now that I'm older and less inclined to give a fig what other people think about what I can and cannot do, and now that attitudes towards recreational ballet enthusiasts are shifting, I consider myself to be in a position to be able to do this.
The price is right, too - works out to $15 per 1.5 hour class. That's only slightly more than I was paying to take bellydance classes here in DE, and it's WAY less than the $200 for eight weeks I was paying for classes in Philly (plus gas for the drive up and back!).
2012 was the Year of Exercise Love. Thanks to Tony Horton, I've exercised just about every single day this year. He made exercise fun for me, and I'll totally continue to use his exercise routines and follow his good, sound advice for many years to come. Making that investment in myself has not only paid off - it's become priceless.
2013 - and maybe the remainder of 2012 - will be the Year of Chasing the Bliss. :) Now that I'm feeling confident and strong, I'm going to go after those things which I have always wanted to do, and ballet is #1 on that list. Plus - the extra exercise can't hurt!