Friday, October 19, 2012
There was quite a lot on Spark yesterday about the support, encouragement and understanding that all of us give each other. Where – as someone asked – would we all be without each other? Indeed! I - for one - would be long gone. As it is, I simply can’t bring myself to let down all of those who have kept me going – all of them with far too generous souls to hold departure against me but still I just can’t do that. For me that kind of friendship is the essence of Spark.
It’s a while since I blogged. I have not given up, but have been focusing on other things. I’ve been in Dorset finishing the renovation of my tiny country cottage. It went well – and there are only a few final things to do. It has taken the best part of five years but I wanted a project and have done most of it myself – tiling floors and walls, painting everywhere, putting up shelves and making curtains and lose covers. Oh – and digging most of the garden over. Of course I’ve had help with the technical or really heavy stuff – some paid – a lot from my sons. The work has certainly been good for calorie burning but even so – in these last few weeks I totally lost focus and ate (and drank!) what was easy. I tried to plan but not enough I’m afraid. I tracked nothing. Typical!! And frightening that habits that I thought I had put in place forever just slithered out of my grasp. *TRY HARDER* as my school reports used to say.
I am actually slightly horrified at how close I am to the end of all my renovations. What am I going to do with myself NOW? I’m a person who needs to have a project on the go. SO – my next project is going to be - - - ME!! I don’t weigh more than once a month – on the 25th - so I don’t actually know for certain at the moment, but I’m more likely to have gained rather than lost this month despite all the hard work I have put into the house. What I’m really doing here is owning up to the fact that I’ve been B-A-AD – big-time. Having no time is my excuse but I could have been better if I’d wanted to – there was a great blog to this effect recently – ‘if you truly want to then you can find the the time’ was the message. I’m engraving that on my brain! What I really need to do is get back the discipline that I had acquired and that was really helping me to shed pounds – FINALLY - after several years of stop-start here on Spark.
So that’s my aim for the next six weeks – eat better – certainly drink less wine – and re-launch some formal exercise – before my most recent efforts are wasted. It would be terrible to let go of the progress I have made. l have to REALLY train my bad habits out of myself so I don’t fall back on them when stress or other things occur in my life– but it’s harder than I expected. Shouldn’t they have gone by now? Well – apparently not. Today I read another blog by another Sparker – the essence of which was – when tempted in whatever way – take deep breaths and think it out rather than giving in..
So many words of wisdom here on Spark which I store in an ‘Inspiration’ file on my laptop.
So dear Spark friends – I thank you for all the times you have inspired me and even
me. I will happily do the same for you