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Friday, October 19, 2012

There was quite a lot on Spark yesterday about the support, encouragement and understanding that all of us give each other. Where – as someone asked – would we all be without each other? Indeed! I - for one - would be long gone. As it is, I simply can’t bring myself to let down all of those who have kept me going – all of them with far too generous souls to hold departure against me but still I just can’t do that. For me that kind of friendship is the essence of Spark.

It’s a while since I blogged. I have not given up, but have been focusing on other things. I’ve been in Dorset finishing the renovation of my tiny country cottage. It went well – and there are only a few final things to do. It has taken the best part of five years but I wanted a project and have done most of it myself – tiling floors and walls, painting everywhere, putting up shelves and making curtains and lose covers. Oh – and digging most of the garden over. Of course I’ve had help with the technical or really heavy stuff – some paid – a lot from my sons. The work has certainly been good for calorie burning but even so – in these last few weeks I totally lost focus and ate (and drank!) what was easy. I tried to plan but not enough I’m afraid. I tracked nothing. Typical!! And frightening that habits that I thought I had put in place forever just slithered out of my grasp. *TRY HARDER* as my school reports used to say.

I am actually slightly horrified at how close I am to the end of all my renovations. What am I going to do with myself NOW? I’m a person who needs to have a project on the go. SO – my next project is going to be - - - ME!! I don’t weigh more than once a month – on the 25th - so I don’t actually know for certain at the moment, but I’m more likely to have gained rather than lost this month despite all the hard work I have put into the house. What I’m really doing here is owning up to the fact that I’ve been B-A-AD – big-time. Having no time is my excuse but I could have been better if I’d wanted to – there was a great blog to this effect recently – ‘if you truly want to then you can find the the time’ was the message. I’m engraving that on my brain! What I really need to do is get back the discipline that I had acquired and that was really helping me to shed pounds – FINALLY - after several years of stop-start here on Spark.
So that’s my aim for the next six weeks – eat better – certainly drink less wine – and re-launch some formal exercise – before my most recent efforts are wasted. It would be terrible to let go of the progress I have made. l have to REALLY train my bad habits out of myself so I don’t fall back on them when stress or other things occur in my life– but it’s harder than I expected. Shouldn’t they have gone by now? Well – apparently not. Today I read another blog by another Sparker – the essence of which was – when tempted in whatever way – take deep breaths and think it out rather than giving in..
So many words of wisdom here on Spark which I store in an ‘Inspiration’ file on my laptop.

So dear Spark friends – I thank you for all the times you have inspired me and even emoticon me. I will happily do the same for you

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    "Life got in the way" while you were getting your self in order. emoticon can be your motto for now. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1883 days ago
    Don't beat yourself up. You have been busy busy and needing some sustenance to keep your pecker up. Well done you on completing your little house. Wonderful. Now concentrate on yourself for a change. WTG emoticon xx
    1883 days ago
    Hay there! Thank you for your recent comment on my blog this week. It's really good to see you again. Congrats on the near completion of the house.

    If I haven't said it enough (or even if i have), "Thank you for your friendship"

    "What I’m really doing here is owning up to the fact that I’ve been B-A-AD – big-time. Having no time is my excuse but I could have been better if I’d wanted to "
    * You use very judgmental (almost morally so) phraseology here and in other places in your blog.

    I have gained 10 pounds in the last few months and I have not used the terms "bad" or "need to do better". If you consider your current state to be problematic, then treat what's causing it as a problem (not a moral indictment or reason to self-judge)

    Below is a blog I wrote a while back. It's verbose, but I mean what I say in it.

    Much Love emoticon emoticon

    - Trent
    1883 days ago
    Lovely to see you blogging again Sonia. Ditch the guilt hun. You've not been BAD, just HUMAN. If you could repeat the same actions perfectly week after week without ever slipping up you would be a ROBOT! And who wants that?

    SUCCESS is not about never falling down. It is about always picking yourself up again and again - keeping on going regardless.

    FAILURE is when you fall down and stay down. That is not you, Sonia x

    1884 days ago
    Sonia everyone's priorities change from time to time and it's so easy to feel you've slipped off track.
    Just stop and think for a minute.
    It's because you've been so active that you've not tracked- BUT you HAVE been more active.
    You've had the occasional foray into bad eating- BUT you've probably needed those extra calories to get you through your busy days.

    And who can blame you for winding down from all your toil and taking time out with an ikkle drinkie poo..
    I reckon come the 25th you'll be pleasantly surprised when you face the dreaded scale emoticon so don't diss yourself so much. You've been on the go for weeks now-major calorie burning!!!

    Nice to hear you are concentrating on you now though, especially since your recent emails. Gotta take care of Numero Uno hun emoticon

    Have a good weekend emoticon emoticon
    1884 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/19/2012 6:12:19 AM
    1884 days ago
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