Friday, October 19, 2012
I decided to catch up with stuff I've been neglecting this week so haven't made it to any exercise classes. My energy level has gone down and I just wish to be alone to do what I need to do. I was invited out by a friend yesterday we went to a marvellous matinee show called "Top Hat" full of beautiful costumes from 1940's era, great dancing and singing and one liners. And the place was awash with people I'd have called it the Blue rinse brigade in the past but I've joined them now. They had come in by coach from other parts of London and counties. I call where I currently live a privilege as we are a tube or bus or train ride away from the centre of London and all it has to offer. Got home to be confronted by a mess but was told that was tidy in comparison to when my niece came in and wanted to start cooking. She had to clean and tidy the whole kitchen - that's what some of us get when our better halves go wild in the kitchen cooking up literally and metaphorically storms. It also dawned on me that I take on other peoples stress and have to stop this. One of the antidotes to this is exercise so I've discovered. Result of doing exercise I have more energy and can cover far more jobs. Next week I am meeting up with my 2 friends from work again which I'm hoping will be a laugh. Our dear old friend was in a terrible way having lost confidence big time so panicking about things like getting off an escalator. Seeing her was certainly a wake up call for me and a reminder about looking after myself for the future. I wonder about this too what's in it for me meeting others who've been the victims of control freaks. I haven't half met so many of these people lately. I noticed a similarity to how I've been such as having the confidence knocked out of me etc. Am I reading too much into this? I think there must be something in it for me meeting the same type of people so many times. Anyway maybe we need to be kind to ourselves before anyone else and build ourselves up to take on the world again. Tonight I'm going to the relaxation class for women and I know that's going to be worthwhile just going somewhere where the intention is so worthwhile. Anyway projects about this house are a never ending mission grrgrrr I love this place but it is like some children and adults constantly demanding attention.