Thursday, October 18, 2012
My hubby and I argue a lot of the time and we are not your typical starry eyed lovers but we do love each other. Sometimes we find it hard to say or to feel that we really do care for each other. We lead stressful lives and having ADHD kids is not a picnic either.
My hubby really didn't get binging. He understand emotional eating because he does it too but when he does it it's more I'm going to be naughty and have an extra scoop of ice cream not finish the tub.
A few days ago I decided to go back to my roots of being vegetarian. I was vegetarian for 10 years till I was pregnant with my second child and due to cravings I had meat. I usually had it about twice a week tops. I did have fish while I was vegetarian about 2 a month. I told him I was not labeling myself as vegetarian or vegan (I'm off dairy for allergy reasons, although once a week I indulge in home made ice cream) but I prefer not to eat meat for a few months just to see if my medical issues (lack of energy, thyroid playing up, high cholesterol sort themselves out.)
We had a huge fight because he cooked a really good dinner spinach cannelloni but he used loads of butter and cheese. I wouldn't taste it as I had just finished my meal and was not hungry and knew it would trigger me. I told him it looks really yummy but I can't have it. He was so mad at me and went on about how I'm always changing my diet. Well that would have caused a binge right there and then but I remembered that I had completed 56 days of being binge free and although I wanted to clear up from dinner I knew the best thing for me was to go to my bedroom and read a book. I did that, calmed down and stayed there.
Two days later, today is our 19th anniversary. When hubby kissed me good morning he said I know you worry about what to eat when we are out and especially now your semi vegan so I'm thinking we should do something that doesn't involve food. There are no good films/movies on right now but we will find something to do.
You see he gets it. He may not always understand and it's taken him a long time to understand about binging (it took me a long time to tell him) but he really does get it now.
I wish us many more years of arguing and kissing to make up.
If you are ever in doubt of reaching out to the people you love don't be. You love them because you know they will always be there for you.