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Starting over! =)

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Ok after my last 'freaked out' blog post and having received wonderful & kind comments from some people here (Thank you again! emoticon ) , I did some thinking and decided to start over! Meaning, I will no longer step onto the scale weekly and I will also stop logging my food! Just like I did all those past months before coming back to SP, I will simply listen to my body and *trust* its needs! Since I am following a plant based diet (trying to stay on the healthy/lower fat range and focusing on lots of veggies, fruits & whole grains vs. vegan 'junk food') I know, I'll be ok!!!
I will go by how my clothes fit, enjoy my workouts without obsessing about how many calories I've eaten and how many calories I've burned in comparison etc., I will simply LIVE and BE THANKFUL every day for having a healthy body that lets me move!!!

I feel I needed to have this mental push to realize [again] what really is important in life!!!

Of course I don't want to *gain* weight!.. My former ED and also part vanity as well as some other personal reasons already have me tied down a bit in that department to the point where I probably could never be 100% relaxed and just eat what I want, when ever I want... There will always be the little voice of reasoning in my head... BUT I can try to keep the voice down by making healthy choices and not worry any further! (I mean really, trying to log lettuce leaves and zucchini, carrots etc. WTH!?) Portion control and ok, for baked goodies I will do the calculation so I'll get a feeling for it, but that's about it!

I feel mentally exhausted from these past weeks stressing out over not exceeding a certain caloric amount and if I did, feeling guilty over it *or* the opposite, on days where I've stayed in the lower range immediately expecting 'miracles' to show on the scale the next morning! *sigh*

So, that's it! Back to the 'roots', following my instincts and trying my best to love & ACCEPT myself and my body AS IT IS!!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ZESATIONAL 11/28/2012 7:05AM

    What a Fabulous Post!

I can so totally relate to all of this.. and what a schlep it is to record every single thing you put into you mouth just to identify how much calories you have consumed for the day...pheeeew..

Yip!.. knowing that you're eating healthy most of the time and getting decent workouts 3-4 times a week... should be more than enough to keep you healthy without having to beat yourself up if you slip in a treat or two.

Good for you!... I second you all the way. Be Happy emoticon

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1HAPPYSPIRIT 10/18/2012 5:57AM

    Good luck with your new plan and wishing you the best on meeting your goals!

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CHERRY666 10/17/2012 3:34PM

    I can so relate to what you wrote above. Your new attitude sounds great and I wish you lots of luck!

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DS9KIE 10/17/2012 12:54PM

    I think your new plan is GREAT! emoticon

I'm glad your feeling better with just have to stop and smell the roses emoticon (or your clothes fit, your breathing fresh air with no smoke, etc)

Have a great day emoticon

Comment edited on: 10/17/2012 12:56:53 PM

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RHONDALYN10 10/17/2012 12:54PM

    Wonderful!! You got this!

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CUDA440 10/17/2012 12:39PM

    Great post!!!

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ROSALIEESTHER 10/17/2012 12:32PM

    emoticon This is so inspiring Val! I'm so happy to hear your plan. And not just the plan, which is great, but that you have the courage to reset your thinking. That is not easy to do and it is what is necessary in order to make life better.

Good For You! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NSBRIDE2010 10/17/2012 10:47AM

    Great post, very positive turnaround! The mental side is half the battle!

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