Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Today I'm sitting at Milner Library on a desktop, eating 1 cup of baby carrots. Because they are good for me. Not because I like them. Yesterday, I had a bowl of lentil chili for lunch. Not because I like it, but because it's good for me. The other night for dinner, I had cauliflower, which I hate. But it's good for me, so I sucked it up and ate it.
Notice a pattern? Actually, it's not so bad, as long as I balance things out by eating things I do like. I may have to choke down the rest of these carrots, but that means when I'm done, I get to have the juicy gala apple I have in my lunchbox next. And the Fiber One bar I packed. And the carefully-counted bag of Pringles. ;)
This morning I swam 1200 yards again and I did it in 40 minutes, not 35 like last week. I was up in the middle of the night, worrying about my schoolwork again, and when 5am came, I turned off the alarm and laid in bed, arguing with myself. "Should I go? Should I stay in bed and catch up on sleep?" Obviously, going won. I told myself eventually that I would hate myself all day if I didn't do it, so at 5:25 I finally crawled out of bed and went. But I wasn't that into it. However, that's okay. You don't have to love getting healthy every single moment, you just have to suck it up and do it sometimes. Today is one of those days I'm sucking it up and doing it. Oh, and I'm down a pound from last week so that in itself is what's keeping me in the game today. :)