Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Today is a day to get back on track.
I was listening to a great Renee podcast this morning in which she reminded us that no one is every perfect and that it's unrealistic to think "I'll never overeat again" or "I'll never have a negative thought again." She also wisely stated that when we do overeat or feel negative, we should be grateful for the message this slip up is there to teach us.
Well, I've been slipping up, overeating, and feeling a bit negative about it, so it's time to find the gifts...
I recently got to my goal weight, right around my birthday, and right around receiving some disconcerting health news (I'm in the early phases of an auto-immune disease, and getting holistic treatment to try to fix it before it's full blown).
Anyway, for the past two weeks, I've been overeating at dinner on an almost nightly basis. I'm not binging per se, but I'm eating until way past full, and often hoping no one is seeing me. Then I get uncomfortably stuffed and wake up feeling bad physically.
At first I felt relaxed about it. I did my redos, journaled and blogged about it, and practiced self-correcting and EFT. However, the behavior hasn't stopped.
I'm trying to get at the root of it all.
I know I'm afraid about the health news. I feel grateful to know about it at a relatively early phase, and for the professional care I'm receiving from a trusted healer. However, it's still disconcerting because it seems to have come about due to stress and lack of sleep, two areas I have little power to improved dramatically. Also, as a mother, it's scary to think about having compromised health.
I'm also quite exhausted now that the school year has begun again, and dinner has always been my trouble time. It's that time of day when I really want to just veg out, but I have to clean the kitchen, get my daughter bathed and into bed, and get to bed myself.
Anyway, I'd love some support, insight, wisdom from the group.
I've never gotten to goal weight and stayed there. I really want this to be a permanent weight for me, and I really want the great changes I've made with IOWL to stick. Before this self-destructive overeating gets out of control, I'm reaching out.
As for the gifts, let me see...
Overeating is letting me know that something is going on. I'm anxious about my health. And maybe I'm anxious about being able to stay at my goal weight. And I need to rest more and stress less.
My body and my behavior are giving me very clear messages. The trick is to listen, hear the lessons, and take actions to change.
Through IOWL I know that eating the right portions feels so much better. It's more pleasurable. And certainly sleeping enough feels pleasurable. And furthermore, reducing my stress can only be great.
It sounds so simple when I write it. Today is a new day and I'm committing here to starting over.
Please help me take the easier, more pleasurable path!