Monday, October 15, 2012
To the day I get to meet my niece and see my whole family!:) THURSDAY 18th.
I have mixed feelings. I am disappointed I gained instead of lost. I have days where I catch myself worrying about the family dynamics, the tension, stress, emotional ups & downs and overreactions we tend to have - we are all very opinionated and protective and get defensive and voices get louder...! But I'm also counting down the days where we can all just laugh, take pictures, watch a movie and eat my dad's popcorn!
I have supportive friends and my husband here who all know that I've been working hard towards my goals (eating slower, not interrupting, working out a lot, eating less, etc.) so that my family won't criticize or pick me apart.;(
They're FAMILY they're the ones who are supposed to support you but I tend to get nervous - remembering harsh words from the past (but I need to just put it behind me, let it all roll off my back like water off a duck's back, put up my protective shield and play bingo: "Oh got one! He corrected me for this. Oh that's two, she just got particular about something and had to bring something up!" haha!
Through my work's insurance, I email with my health coach (at Delta Health systems) and she has been very helpful. I wake up early to read, pray, meditate, journal, and then to go work out. What could be wrong?!
No really, I am excited! I'm a peacekeeper. My strengths can also be my weaknesses.
Thnx for listening!