KNITTERBUG1
1,000-2,499 SparkPoints 2,133
SparkPoints
 

So angry

Monday, October 15, 2012

I am disappointed.

I am disgusted.

I am depressed.

And I am so unbelievably angry.

At myself.

I let myself gain back all the weight I lost.

I'm back where I started, in pain, uncomfortable, disgusted and feeling disgusting.

When am I going to change?

Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • SUSANS706
    As you can see, you are far from alone! Forgive yourself, and welcome back!!
    1516 days ago
  • MINDYJ1
    I have done the same thing many times over! We just have to turn that angry into determination to get the job done! We can do it! We just can't give up! emoticon
    1516 days ago
  • BKNOCK
    I have been there too. It is a horrible feeling but you know what to do, baby steps! Take one day at a time and one meal at a time and move as much as possible and you will start feeling better again.
    1516 days ago
  • BLONDEE53
    Aww, honey girl....
    I can identify with this dilemma. As others said, pick up and take off again. You CAN do this. God loves you and you matter enough for your best efforts.
    Blessings to you as you get back on track and move forward again.
    Love and hugs,
    Bren
    1516 days ago
  • FREE_SPIRIT4
    Been there, done that. Just take it one day at a time. Set small goals to help you stay on track. This is what works for me. I don't look at the big picture. You can do it!
    1517 days ago
  • LINOVER
    Hang in there! I've gained back some of what I lost this summer. It is irritating but you just have to make yourself start over again! emoticon
    1517 days ago
  • KARIDIAN1
    Don't beat yourself up! You are not alone. I have gained back 15 pounds over the summer. I know what I need to do, I just have to do it. I need a good kick in the rear.

    You give me a push, and I will push you.

    Right now- tag your it!
    1517 days ago
  • RACHELBUGSMAMA
    Last year I lost 35#. Then I gained back 45#. But here I am, just gotta keep on pushing on. I know it will be a lifelong struggle, but it's worth doing it for my health. emoticon
    1517 days ago
  • _BACK2BASICS_
    No matter how far down the wrong path you've traveled, TURN AROUND!
    emoticon
    1517 days ago
  • LORRAINE10141
    Fall down seven times, stand up eight. Japanese Proverb
    1517 days ago
  • LOSING30TOWIN
    I've lost 40 with 25 more to go and I just joined the maintainers team. My biggest fear is gaining it back as I slowly have done in the past. The team has a lot of great information on how to maintain. You may want to join as you lose again.

    I know it is easy to beat ourselves up but try self talk. Tell yourself, I will take the past as a hard learning experience and I will use those lessons to permanently lose the weight again and this time I will stay at goal weight.
    emoticon
    1517 days ago
  • DONNAMBRUTON
    Today for sure. .you can do it..let this be a lesson learned...I've been here before. Iv'e lost 60 lbs..and I gained 40 back..It's like in my head..oh I've came so far and I just wanna take it easy..no that doesnt work..now I just want this more and more..Don't give up..please don't !!!!!! Just get that passion you had back when you lost all the weight before!!! emoticon emoticon
    1517 days ago
  • ZIGGY122
    oooooooooooooh dear! pick yer-self up and do it again... you can do this... start today..one small step at a time emoticon emoticon
    1517 days ago
  • TRAVLNWOMAN
    Today!
    1517 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment


    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.
 

More Blogs by KNITTERBUG1