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One month later...

Monday, October 15, 2012

...and what a change my life has taken! I arrived back in Germany about 10 days ago, urged by friends and family to make it back to attend my graduation ceremony. I received my second master's in international theological education.

Then I attended a much-needed, 4-day retreat in Switzerland last week. Today I started back to work at the language school and have slipped into planning the annual international worship service at church this coming weekend. But I'm only here for a few weeks to settle my affairs here so that I can go back to the States for a few months.

Losing my dad has been traumatic on so many levels I can't yet begin to describe here. Now I have the challenge of walking through this time of grieving while at the same time handling the executorship of his estate. Those of you who know me know how much I love paperwork and bookkeeping. It is really going to take another of God's miracles to get me through this. But He is in the business of making miracles. In spite of the sometimes-overwhelming sadness, I'm also looking forward to seeing how he is going to work this together for my good and his glory.

I've gained a bunch of weight and am making a gradual fresh start here on SP. Since I'm selling my car here in Germany, exercise will be no problem for the next few weeks. Now that I'm back in my own kitchen, I can also be more careful of my eating and get out of the stress-eating habit. Will be off the prednisone taper soon, too, which will help get rid of some of the extra pounds and puffiness.

When I get back to FL in November, it will be time to inventory all of Dad's artwork, and pack up everything in the condo where he and Mom lived for some 25 years. There will be mementos to pass on to family members and friends, furniture to sell, accounts to settle. Stay tuned for the miracles.

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SUNNY332 10/18/2012 7:11AM

    Thank goodness, my older brother is the Executor of my Dad's Estate. He lives in New York and Dad lived here in MIssouri so we have had to have attorneys in both states.

As far as the grieving is concerned, I have my days. Every time I go to Hannibal, it seems so strange not going by the Home to see him. I know it is going to take time and it is not something I can rush.

Congrats on your graduation. That is awesome.

Hugs, Sunny

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FRANNIEDID 10/17/2012 6:12AM

    I am so sorry you have to go through this. I did get to pack up my mom's house with her as she sold it and moved in with my brother but packing up my dad's things when we did it was so very difficult. I have gained a lot of weight back with my mom's illness too, I guess it just comes with the territory. God will give you the strength you need to get you through this and help you come out stronger on the other side.

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NEWNAC304 10/16/2012 5:23AM


My heart goes out to you. I know how difficult it is. Allow yourself to grieve. It's going to be so hard going through all of his pictures and things. Do you have a good friend ho can go with you to do this? We had to clean out my mom's house after she died and it was months after she died. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. So many memories were brought back. I hate the thought of you going through that alone.

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RUNNERRACHEL 10/15/2012 10:13PM

    God will give you the strength to handle everything. He will carry you through this time. emoticon

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FORMYDARLINGS 10/15/2012 8:05PM


You know what, when your mom died, your dad decided that he would wait until you had finished your degree before he went on to be with her. Take the time now that you need and move forward as you can. You have a mighty force by your hand and all your friends here and there to help you through everything. Love you,


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EJOY-EVELYN 10/15/2012 7:53PM

    Welcome home, dear. May clarity and purpose reign in your season of mourning as decisions continue to be required. I so dislike paperwork, too, so I don't envy all you have to go through! I hope to checkout the Corkscrew Sanctuary and a SparkFriend's consignment shop during my next SWF jaunt and will wave in your direction and perhaps even see if you're available for a cup of java or tea. Hug, hug -- Evelyn

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VISUALLYRICS 10/15/2012 5:42PM

    Dear beloved friend!! ((((HUGS)))) ...just had to give you emoticon cuz emoticon

OK...I have to send you a heart is touched by your Beautiful spirit ...your Faith strong & True and your Trust in the Lord!

love you to the moon & back again.....:::::::: emoticon Laura

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CAROLYN0107 10/15/2012 4:02PM

    emoticon I just prayed for you. Keep us up on your whereabouts and activities. Let us know about the miracles you experience.

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HAKAPES 10/15/2012 3:18PM

    Sorry to hear about your loss.
I wish you courage for the grieving.
And welcome back for the restart at SP - nothing better for a restart than Herbst!

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JOANNKW 10/15/2012 2:30PM

    Zella, I'm keeping you in my prayers. It is a day I dread, but I have lots of siblings, and we are all in the US at least.

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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 10/15/2012 2:18PM

    I've been thinking about you and know that you have been busy since your dad's passing. I'm sorry you have to go though all that you have to do with regard to closing the estate. Paperwork is my least fun thing to do too....particularly in wrapping up an estate.

I gained about 20 pounds last year at the end of my Dad's illness and after his death. It's an easy thing to do. The weight is coming back off now and it will for you too.


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