Needing Some Motivation
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Ugh.... I am expecting TOM any day now and am feeling bloated and yucky. Feeling crampy in the legs and I am not sure if it is from running or from PMS. Hoping it is the PMS. So I was looking at some pics DH took of me at Crossfit about a week or so ago (I feel like he is he paparazzi sometimes! LOL!). I love the way I look in some of them! Please pardon my vain-ness.
These were super fun! I forget what they were called but you are supposed to go from this position to swinging your legs behind you landing on your toes without letting your feet touch the ground. I can't believe I was able to do most of them! Got a little tired at the end and did drag my toes a bit.... Look at my flatter belly!
And I love the way my thighs look in this picture! The belly and the upper thighs are my two biggest problem areas and I love looking at these pics to see that they don't really look that bad. We were just doing squat cleans with these 20 lb medicine balls---- basically just picking the ball up and squatting with it.
So I blogged, posted two awesome pics of myself.... I need the motivation. I don't know.... for some reason I am feeling weak today. I put in a new scent in my Scentsy (Ooooey Gooey S'mores or something like that- the cheap ones from WalMart) and my kitchen smells like brownies and I want some really bad right now. I found myself trying to keep busy and distracted because I have been feeling super hungry which usually I don't feel hungry at all.... I am so used to eating my meals at certain times my body is used to it. Ugh.... Hoping this will pass! Hopefully it is just PMS.... maybe some of it is the emotinal toll of my 16 yr old getting his driver's liscense. I am feeling a little (well a lot) emotionally drained with this worry and I am used to comforting myself with food. I haven't yet..... I am trying to be strong. I am reminding myself of what happened to me last year at this time. I got down to an all time low, but by mid October I was well on my way back up in weight. The holidays did not help! I will not let that happen this year! In order to suppress my appetitie, I have been drinking more coffee than usual.... It helps for a bit, but I find myself more jumpy and more anxious, thus wanting to eat. I should probably be drinking water.... right? I am thinking about all of the compliments I have been getting.... all of the words of affirmation I have been peppered with these past few weeks. That helps a lot! Definitely my love language.
I'll be OK. Tomorrow begins another super busy week. Not sure if I prefer busy-ness or slowness.... The boys will wrap up their extra curricular activities by the end of the month, then things are going to slow way down for the holidays until early spring when they will pick back up again. Thanks for reading! Hope everybody has a great week!