Sunday, October 14, 2012
Today, as i was wallowing in the bath at some ungodly hour, i looked back at how far i have come , emotionally, physically , weight wise and health wise... Somethings felt as though they had stayed the same.. Somethings have gotten worse., however the general trend seems to be forward, and i am proud of me.
I have to take more tablets now than i did a few years ago... however i guess thats just like keeping a bit of machine working.. i have a few more scars, emotionally and physically, and yet i feel as though i am winning my fight against depression and the fat war. Slowly with help i move forwrd..... and yes i have blips and sink back, ut in general it is forward...
And so , as i lay there floating in the bath and smelling my beautiful bath oil... i realise progress is being made ( all be it very slowly)
Food is becoming to be seen as a way of keeping healthy and not something that i can use to punnish or reward my body with... exercise ... although i dont like it is cool afterwards , because there is a sense of pride........Maybe life is good