Sunday, October 14, 2012
So I'm making my way slowly through the 'Mind over Body' series and I come across the Toxic Guilt article a few days ago. I can really relate to this article although I've never really thought about the guilt that I feel when I overeat or eat something that I didn't plan on eating.
Yesterday my son asked if we could have pancakes, bacon, bananas and maple syrup for breakfast today. I did indeed have all the ingredients so I said yes. In the past I would have cooked something like this for my family but chosen to eat something else. I cringe when I think about the message that sends to my kids about myself and what I am feeding them.
So I made a conscious decision that sharing brunch with my family would be fine today. I don't eat like this everyday and the benefit of spending quality time with them would outweigh the less than healthy qualities of the meal. I decided to be mindful of what I ate for the rest of the day and to do my treadmill run as I had planned and just let any guilt go. I can't feel guilty when I've weighed up my options and made the decision myself right?
I can't tell you what a huge breakthrough this is for me. I have spent such a long time trying not to eat 'bad' food and then beating myself up when I am not perfect so I'm going to continue this week working on listening to the little voice that warns me that I might want to reconsider what I'm doing and then make a conscious decision whether to heed the advice or go ahead and do what I want. No more mindless eating and then beating myself up afterwards.