This is a way of life
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Every change I've made over the past 4 weeks has paid off and paid off big time!! I have lost about 10lbs, I feel amazing, I get good solid sleep at night, my anxiety has diminished greatly, and frankly - I'm just proud of myself.
I am 100% Gluten Free. Ok, not to the point of checking toothpaste and such like someone with Celiac disease but if it has wheat, it's not in my food. I am cooking 100% of my meals. There is almost zero eating out occurring. As I drove home at 1pm starving from work today, I began considering take-out. Instead of the different places sounding "good" - I kept saying "well, if I eat that, what am I at risk for?". I am realizing food is HEALTH. Food is staying well when everyone else is sick around me. Food is fuel and my body runs it's best off what I KNOW is right!
I have been walking almost every day and hit the gym for serious on my day off this week (it was a busy week!). It was the first time I worked out to the point of "sore" the next day - a good sore though. I felt so accomplished!! I was feeling bad about getting "anxious" about 10-15 minutes into working out or walking each time. My therapist told me that's TOTALLY NORMAL! It's the body getting confused about what it's feeling - the increase in heat, surge in heart rate, hormone release - and just let it pass over you and it'll go away. Well she was right - and it was worth it 100%!
Today was an example of why I'm doing what I'm doing. I worked my contingent job today - I'm not as comfortable there as I'm only there about 1-2 times each month. I had my breakfast smoothie and then kinda didn't eat much from 7:30 am til about noon when I nibbled down a gluten free meal replacement bar. I missed my typical morning fruit and then 11am yogurt. I have this down to a science for a good reason - fueling a 12 hour shift is unique. Well I only worked a 6hr shift and when I got on the road at 1:15 I was STARVING. I had sipped on sierra mist and apple juice combo (weird, i know) so my head was clear but already hurting from no protein. By the time I got home, I just started eating and eating and eating before my stomach knew it was full. I consumed 1200 calories for this mid-lunch/dinner meal ALONE! Then I wondered why I was extremely sleepy and nauseated when I woke up. Uh, DUH! It was a lesson that even though the food might be "good" food - binge eating isn't something I do anymore and my body is NOT appreciative! Lesson learned - check!
I also wanted to mention I have added Holy Basil into my routine. I drink Tulsi (same thing) tea regularly during the day, maybe 1-2 cups and then take the extract in capsule form 450mg two times each day. It is extremely soothing and is an "adaptive" herb meaning it helps your body react appropriately to stress. For people that are anxious, it's supposed to help stop that over-reaction of fight/flight to the simple things in life. Well, so far so good. Still taking a little Xanax to keep my wits about me but I really do feel over-all a sense of improvement.
I've also found a great hypnotherapy app on the iPhone. I listen to one of them every night. Puts me to sleep in just minutes and it's got great subtle suggestions throughout. I sleep more deeply and calmly than ever before. I highly recommend! I'm going to try to add in yoga this upcoming week whenever possible. My therapist says it's highly effective for anxiety and overall wellness so why not give it a try? My schedule may be crazy but I must fit these things in for my health and sanity!!
Well it's super dark, rainy, and gloomy in southeastern Michigan today. Guess I shall tackle some homework and reading for class so I am ahead of the game this week. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend :)