Saturday, October 13, 2012
In my efforts to be aware of my body, mind, and spirit...........
Yesterday I made the following observations:
I woke up very foggy brained. I had woken up early and had bad dreams.
I decided to experiment with food, so cooked whole grain oatmeal and had a breakfast of oatmeal, pat of butter, milk. Then I went outside to do yardwork since the weather here was a beautiful fall day. I breathed deeply, got some sunshine, enjoyed nature, moved my body, and accomplished something. During the activity, I had the thought that my brain just needed a rest.......I had overtaxed it (all this blogging, googling, reading, researching was taking it's toll; plus I had been trying to make up my mind about some friend/social issues).
Then I ate a small amount of oatmeal for a break. Then for lunch I ate more oatmeal!
Then I ate a full sugar Coke (I can't help it, I love the taste). Then I did 8 loads of laundry at the laundromat. I felt invigorated and the brain fog lifted.
I didn't do anything special with regard to food or water, except I would note that my food was mostly all carbs. Incidentally, this is supposed to be a no-no for my metabolic type.
I did get what I would call non-food nutrients: air & sunshine
i did get some additional boosts: beauty of nature, sustained physical movement, a sense of accomplishment, rest for my brain
Further thoughts this morning:
Why don't we pay more attention to our breathing? If water is more vital that food, then air is what I would call immediately essential. We can go 3 days without water, but can't really go more than 3 minutes without air. I paid attention to my own breathing. I noticed that I do not take deep breaths. I gently forced myself to take deeper breaths and found my muscles relaxing. I asked myself...."Why are you normally not allowing yourself to take deep breaths?" My answer was that ...."I am scared." I asked myself......."Scared of what?"
Answer...."There is so much out there that can hurt me." I noticed that when we take a deep breath, we are relaxed and vulnerable. At that moment, if we were attacked, we would be too weak to defend ourselves. When we ready for attack, we brace ourselves for the onslaught and our muscles tighten, ready to protect ourselves. Apparently I feel the need to adapt this stance all the time.
I am not in any immediate danger, so why the fear? Negative spectres in the news, fear of death, fear of poverty, fear of disease, fear of loss, fear of pollution in the environment that could taint the air, being surrounded and dominated by threatening male posturing, being pressured by female friends to participate in things or lose friendship (guess we could call this threatening female posturing), turmoil from mixed messages (conflicting opinions on how I should proceed), uncertainty about who to listen to.
I need to deal with these fears and get my breathing to be healthier.
I am glad that I observed them. I can learn meaningful things about myself by paying attention to myself.
I did discover a team about breathing, and am going to check that out.