I can't get away from it.. it's like a fire deep within me... No matter how much my mind wanted to steer me away.. my heart and my body yearned for it. I didn't do it for that long (due to a slip up with my ipod falling INTO the treadmill lol).. but that few minutes lit a fire back under me.
Still.. slow and steady wins this race. I started back up with my running again today :) I love running.. and kiiiinda hate it at the same time.. It is truly a love-hate relationship lol. I am keeping with it though, it has always been the one thing I HATED to do. And now all of the sudden (well since I started my journey in July) I just have this yearning to run.. to show myself I can do anything I put my mind to. I am going to start off slow.. a lot slower than before. I do not want to burn out. Next year I want to be able to run my next 5k.. When I visit my family and friends next year for my 30th I want to be able to run WITH and not just keep up with one of my best friends (who is also doing AMAZING with her weight loss and running!!) on our workouts while I am up there.
3 workouts this week, I am good with that. AND my first 5k ever on Sunday :D I got my shirt and bib in the mail yesterday.. I was so excited :) Even though I am not running in it.. It's a start. And my first 5k run will be the color run in Jan of next year. It will give me more time to train and not rush.
I tracked all the food I ate today (for the first time since about 2 weeks before my surgery). I didn't go over in calories.. but I was waaay too close. I wanted to track them because I have been soooo hungry in the past week or two.
I found out what my kidney stones are made out of today. And they are only calcium. No oxolate! So.. that means I can go back to eating what I was eating before (healthy wise). BUT it means I have to watch certain things VERY closely to keep be from going back to the hospital again.
1. Drink at LEAST 12 8oz glasses of water per day.
2. Watch sodium VERY closely.
3 Get daily recommended value of calcium in the food I eat (yes.. calcium).
I am so relieved to know what is going on with my stones! Yay!!
This past week since I have been exercising more regularly and trying my darnedest to eat as healthy as possible (with barely ANY money lol), I have been feeling better than i have in the past few weeks. I am not as up and down in my emptions.. I am happier :)
I am not rushing.. I don't have a strict schedule.. but that is what I need, to take it slow, to learn slow.. just like I do in other aspects of my life. Slow for me means I take time to think about things, why I am doing them, how I am doing them, how I can make things better, fit certain things better into my own life...get used to things and make things my own. All mine.