I feel like I should be like Eeyore as I sit here feeling my belly touching my leg as I type this. I went up AGAIN today. I ate way too much yesterday AGAIN. But you know what, I'm not feeling like Eeyore. I'm just in an passive kind of mood today. I will get there. Not sure how or when, but I will get there. I have come a long way and I still have a ways to go. I will get there. Yes I would have been super excited to be at a new low instead of climbing right back up BUT I can't let it hurt me that way or it will only make it worse. Although I can't become too passive either or that will make it worse.
I have the baby today. She really likes to be held a lot and doesn't sleep for long stretches, but hopefully once she gets used to me and being here that will change and I'll be able to do a DVD or something when she takes a good nap. I did get in a short walk. She started getting antsy so we only got in half the neighborhood but it's better than nothing.
Guess what I didn't do yesterday. Yep, take my vitamins and start my crunches and things again. :( Must do that today! It really could be part of my over eating.
I need to make a plan too. A what to eat plan. I still haven't made my soup so I've been eating GF pasta and things. I'm not horribly disappointed because I feel like it's good to get those carbs in here and there but I need to watch that I don't over do it. Like my quote on my page background says.. "If it is to be, it is up to me." So true. I love that quote because it reiterates the fact that there is no passing the buck on this. Either I do it, or I don't. It's nobody else's fault but my own. I CAN do this. I HAVE to do this. I HAVE to man up. I have to be strong. I have to take charge. I have to take control. I have to sweat. I have to learn when to stop eating and to be strong enough to push the rest of the food away. I CAN DO THIS!! I HAVE TO DO THIS! I WILL DO THIS!!!
Sorry for the language, but sometimes you need that aggressive push to really motivate you! At least I know I do. lol! Of course they may make me take it off.. hmmm.. :)
Breakfast: Coffee, banana
Snack: Raisins and Walnuts
Lunch: GF Pasta with spinach, tomatoes, and soy yogurt sauce yummy!
Snack: Raisins and Walnuts
Dinner: vegetarian chili tofu spinach concoction
"Don't dig your grave with your own knife and fork. "
Time to weigh in!
December 12th HW- 205
January 12th GW- 195 DONE!
February 12th GW- 187 DONE!
March 12th GW- 180 DONE!
April 12th GW- 172 DONE!
May 12th GW- 165 DONE!
June 12th GW- 157 DONE!
July 12th GW- 150 DONE!
August 12th GW- 145 NOT DONE. REEVALUATION!!
September 12th GW- 145 DONE!!
Yesterday's Weight: 144.2
TODAY'S WEIGHT: 145.8
October 12th GW- 142
November 12th GW- 139
December 12th GW- 136
January 12th GW- 134
TOTAL POUNDS GONE... 64.6!!!
THIS WEEK'S WAR/CHALLENGES!!!
Sunday: (slow) Walked on Treadmill DONE!
Monday: Zumba Toning and Zumba! DONE!
Tuesday: ZUMBA!! DONE!!
Wednesday: ZUMBA!! DONE!!
Thursday: short walk with baby :) DONE!
NEVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP!!!!!