Thursday, October 11, 2012
Most of the days, I've been positive and patient. Today, I am ANGRY and FRUSTRATED and IRRITATED - mostly at myself.
WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY - is it still so hard?
Even though I have been carefully eating a balanced diet, trying to get more proteins and fruits/veggies, whole grains, and exercising/taking rest days, sleeping enough, etc. WHY do I still feel the urge, no - COMPULSION - to eat dessert after every meal?
I've tried all the tricks - water, brushing teeth, keeping fingers/mind occupied. The only thing I haven't tried is stepping out for a walk - too much going on today. Despite everything that I've been doing - OH NO, I'm still craving something sweet - ice-cream, actually. Mint chocolate chip, to be precise. I'm scared that I'll end up eating three bowls full though. I'm just tired of FEELING the NEED to eat sweets.