Thursday, October 11, 2012
I slept very badly, for no reason, last night. I did ST and 45 minutes of cardio yesterday when I got home, THEN went grocery shopping, THEN picked up the house and made dinner. I was physically exhausted by the time I laid down at 11:00. But my brain would NOT shut UP.
So I laid there, considering and dissecting every decision I'd made for the last 20 years, instead. I only ended up getting about 6 hours of sleep.
So that set me up for a bad day.
Next, I discovered that my cat, Mina is ill. Puking all over the house and freaking out. I have no idea what is up with her because she NEVER throws up. I'm going to try to wait her out and see what's up with her today before taking her to the vet tomorrow. She still alert, bright, playing and wanting attention, so I'm hoping this is nothing too serious.
However, there were still 6 piles of cat puke to clean up this morning, which did NOT want to come out.
That set the Bad Day Express in motion.
Then, I get to work and all absolute hell has broken loose. We have company AND departmental problems today. No less than 15 paper routes were dropped over night, so we have to find a way to get all that delivered.
So that added steam to the bad day.
Also, "decorating" has become an issue. I got permission TWO WEEKS ago FROM Vince, the used-to-be-ad-director, now-publisher to have a little holiday fun and encourage people to bring in Halloween decorations for their desk and department with prizes for the best decor. Evidently when Vince came in today, he was absolutely FREAKING OUT about the decorations. Too many, too tacky, too colorful, too everything... He says, "This will be the last year we do this since people can't keep it tasteful."
Ever since our old Publisher left and Vince took over, morale has been in the toilet because every. single. fun. thing about the company has been taken away. In addition to losing out on fun stuff, we're also making things tougher in general: a price increase, policy and refund changes, fewer pages in the paper, fewer features in each paper - everything is slowly going the way of the dodo.
I have been TRYING to combat this slow death by organizing fun stuff that costs the company NOTHING. Coming up with the decorating contest, encouraging people to work the downtown area trick-or-treating event, organizing a soup/chili potluck for the end of the month... Anything to get people together, involved with the company, and having fun. We're all spending so much time worrying about the next change, or if we'll even have a job in a year, that we NEED fun things in order to enjoy work.
I'm just massively annoyed with everything in the entire world this morning. I normally try to be a positive person, I try to be fun and silly and outgoing, but you know what? I just cannot do it today. I, plainly, do not give a bleep about today.
There's only so long one person can fight a forest fire with a garden hose.