Thursday, October 11, 2012
The last few days have been pretty exhausting for me. Running around with the kids, taking testing for a (hopefully) new job, interviews, work, cooking, cleaning.... it is true that a woman's work never ends. That coupled with my recent bout of insomnia has got me feeling worn out by the end of the day.
If one good thing is to come out of only getting 6 hours of sleep a night, it's that I wake up just motivated enough to get my workouts in. This morning I rode 3 laps around my apt. complex on my bike. I enjoy the lack of competition for road space from cars, the overall quietness of the dawn, the cooler temperature. Sometimes I even get to see some stars. Even though I am working out hard (for me, anyway, lol), the early, and I mean EARLY, workouts have this sense of peace about them that you just don't get at night. The only ones up to judge me are my cats, and I'm pretty sure they don't care that I'm covered in sweat so long as I keep that food dish filled.
The best thing about all that would be the sense of accomplishment. I don't have the whole day to "Dread" exercise or make up excuses for myself. A big challenge that I overcame and gave into a little bit last night was getting my evening workout done. I drop my daughter off for cheerleading practice and take my son for walk around downtown Bixby every Wednesday night. But last night I really just wanted to sit around. I also was not in the mood to cook and my daughter conveniently requested a Happy Meal. Ooooh, McNuggets... the bane of my very existence. In my mind, I knew there was no way in H-E-Double Hockey sticks that I was going to be able to skip my workout AND get mcnuggets and possibly feel good about myself. SO I made myself a deal. Workout a little bit longer than usual, and you too, Mommy, can get yourself a chicken McNugget Happy Meal. I ended up walking nearly 40 minutes (I usually do 25). I got my Happy Meal. Life is good. First fast food in 3 weeks, not really proud of it, but that's a big deal for someone who was eating it every day. A cheat here and there (and I mean OCCASIONALLY) is ok, that's something regular dieting Sara would have never gone for. Having a Happy Meal would have been the collapse of a diet and the start of a 3 day binge. No more "forbidden" foods. Just have to compromise. Just part of changing for the better I guess!