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Guilty as charged...I GAVE UP

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

I'm feeling so angry with myself.

Yesterday I took a break from running. While I felt guilty, I was glad that I listened to my body and slept in a bit.

Today is another story. I got up at 5:05 (cuz 5:00 is too early ( emoticon ), I drank a big glass of water, got dressed, went to the kitchen and got my bottle of water ready for after my run, and then it happened. I went to the basement and hit the on button for the tv, nothing. I turned the light on above the treadmill and tried to turn on the treadmill, again nothing. I checked the breakers and they were all fine. I checked the surge protector that they are both plugged into, NOTHING.

So I went upstairs. I was going to do some ST and try a cardio video. I have zero coordination when it comes to cardio workouts. (I LOVE to run and it isn't affected by my lack of coordination.) I really don't like doing ST if I've not run a bit before and gotten my heart pumping and a little sweat going on. So....

I just gave in...I went back upstairs. Took off my workout clothes, took out my contacts, put my pj's back on and crawled in bed. I completely gave up.

When I had to get back up to take my shower before work, I gently woke my partner to let her know because she's started walking 4 mornings a week and I didn't want her to get up expecting to be able to. So she stayed in bed and I got on my not so merry way.

On my way to work she told me she checked before work. It was the GFI on the outlet. The one I DIDN'T even see. It's the same color as the outlet instead of being red and black. I can deal with missing that but I'm having a really hard time with giving up.

I know I shouldn' happens. But it also scares me. It's part of the old me. And I don't like that. I've come too far to go back now. I have to figure out how to deal with this. I'm relieved that I didn't post my goals for the month because I'm sure to not meet them. What's worse is that it's the 10th and I haven't posted them. I have a week of vacation this month and I'm not sure how much I will run and I want to make the goal attainable so I've put that off. This is yet another OLD habit. If I have no goals I don't fail.

UGH! I don't like this me.
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  • FIREFLY4407
    Don't be too hard on yourself - there will be times when things come up. Do you have a back-up plan? Can you run tonight when you get home from work? I would be more worried about the fact that you are avoiding setting goals than the fact that life got in the way and you may not get to work out today. Since you didn't get to work out today, at least set ONE goal for yourself for the month - do it TODAY. Don't make it super crazy, but something to help keep you from going completely off track. You can do it !!!!
    1961 days ago
    Good for you for listening to your body. I didn't listen to mine and I've been on the side lines for 3 week.s
    1961 days ago
    Sometimes these things happen. Learn to forgive yourself and focus on tomorrow. You'll get 'er done! :)
    1961 days ago
    Being aware and being so honest goes a long way to stopping an unwanted behavior in its tracks! Sometimes I wish I wasn't so compulsive about daily exercise. The world does go on without it and missing a day or two doesn't mean you won't be right back in the swing of things tomorrow (or tonight!). You sound very motivated. Good luck!
    1961 days ago
    Oh gosh be careful not to let the old way creep in. Every morning I was at the gym at 5 am as the manager was opening the door I was right on her heels to get started. This was every single morning ,It happened one morning I woke up rolled over & said not today, My husband was shocked also. one morning after another I failed to go,. The day came I never went back, then I had the nerve to wonder why I began to plump up, feel tired & moody. emoticon do not give up Take care
    1961 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/10/2012 8:27:05 AM
    Bid the old you good bye and move on with the new you.

    Make Today a Great day.
    1961 days ago
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