Tuesday, October 09, 2012
Has it ever happened to you? Doing cardio and the rage just builds until you feel like you're going to blow?
It's only happened to me twice. Once was this morning.
I am just so frustrated at my foot, my lack of being able to do anything but seated cardio, and blah, blah, blah.
So this AM I'm trying to do my seated cardio. I do it like interval training: 5 min. of seated cardio, 5 minutes of ST, etc, etc. But this AM it just got to be too much. I feel SILLY doing seated cardio, which is not good. First of all, I can get my heart rate up doing it, it's just a lot harder. Second, how dare I complain about doing seated cardio when the only problem is an ortho injury that will one day be better? Talk about lack of gratitude.
But that is where I was this AM and I finally just blew. It wasn't pretty.
The good news is, I have a plan. Plans always help. Now that the diagnosis is definitive (occult ganglion cyst deep within my foot), I think that I can swim.
So I am choosing to forget the needless 10 weeks in the boot. I am choosing to forget the thousands of dollars I am going to have to pay by the end of this whole process (with no insurance). I am forgetting that I just bought an elliptical, I already have a treadmill, and how I'm going to pay $60/month to go to a gym for pool access. I'm forgetting all of that (see how well I'm forgetting it???).
I am going to try to focus on keeping the faith and keep on keeping on. My calories are great today. My mood is pretty good. I'm going to try to swim tomorrow and see if it hurts my foot (before committing to the gym membership). So there you go.
I also ate at at Mexican restaurant last night (don't ask), but managed to not go crazy. Yay for me (said with only the slightest amount of disdain).
Positivity will be back. It is just kind of sucky right now. You know?