Tuesday, October 09, 2012
The past three weeks have taken there toll on me. On Sept. 14th I went to see my primary doctor for my check up. She took several test. She was very happy that I had lost some weight, told her I had gotten serious. We also discussed something that I was not comfortable talking about. I told her that for the past six months, I have episodes of crying for no reason. Several of these episodes happened while talking to my best friend. There was nothing unpleasant about in our talks. I just suddenly burst into tears. It happened at work, home, and scared me.
The doctor said that it is depression. The past two years have been tough years for me.
In 2010 I was diagnosed with diabetes. Early in 2011 I was told I had Fibromyalgia, RA,
Sjjogrens Syndrome, and that it was l most likely had others that could not be confirmed since my inflammation levels were still high. Both my doctor & Diabetes educator were concerned that I was not accepting it well,. My diabetes educator recommended Sparks
for support for my diabetes. They knew I had no support from family, and only a few people that I felt were supportive. I was told that my health conditions, along with a very low Vitamin D level can lead to depression. This has only made me feel worse.
My doc replaced one of my meds for Fibro. She feels that it will also help with the depression, Well This is my second week on the new medicine, & I am starting to feel a little more in control. I know that I need to start taking steps to get my life in balance.
I am learning that I need to continue to move forward. I need to push myself out of my comfort level. I cannot use the excuse that my body hurts, there is always something that can be done that will be a gentle form of exercise. (water, Tai CHi or yoga). I need to make
myself a priority. I have said this in the past, now is the time for action. I'm working on learning to love myself, to be positive, and reduce the negative that runs thru my head at times. It's a learning process. It starts with one step at a time, one day at a time. I started on this journey to get myself healthy..It has had many detours, challenges, and road blocks
along the way. Sometimes I get lost, but I will eventually find my way. I WILL NOT QUIT!!
One thing I have learned is that I am worth the effort. We all are. Never give up on yourself.