Tuesday, October 09, 2012
Hello world! I'm back, after a long hiatus. The last time I checked into Spark People and blogged was more than *gasp* a full year ago!!
I feel pretty bad about that, but instead of wallowing in that guilt, let me just take a moment to review: I was weighing in on 7/22/11 at 175.2. Today (10/9/12), I weighed in at 186.8. That means I've gained 10# over the past year, with a few dips both below 175 and above 186.
So, what happened? Well, besides the normal challenges of making healthy eating choices on a daily basis and finding the time in one's busy schedule to exercise, I've had a couple major stressors since fall of last year: divorce, job change, moving four times (!), one major health scare, an operation, and two accidents (neither of them my fault).
I'm not listing these as an excuse, but rather to clear the air. I mean, we all have stuff that happens to us. I know that your list is just as "interesting" as mine. Life has it's challenges. Life has it's hurdles. Sometimes, it's just good to just put it out there so you can see what you're dealing with. So, this is what I have to deal with: I just turned 30, I'm a soon-to-be divorcee, I still have no idea what I want to be when I grow up, and I'm trying to loose the same 20 pounds that I've been trying to lose since 2010.
So what I am doing back on Spark People? Well, Spark People is more than just about losing weight. I mean, weight is important. It means health, comfortability, longevity. But, as someone who has been struggling with their weight for their entire life, I know that losing the weight is just a means to a much more important end, that end being figuring out what my life is going to look like, figuring out what my new priorities are, figuring out who I want to be.
I want to be someone who is confident. I want to be someone who has the energy to tackle each and every day for the gift that it is. I want to be someone who can give back as much as I'e been given. I want to be someone who can experience all the joys and adventures life has to offer.
So, my goal? Sure, it's to lose 30#. But, I know that it's the decisions that I make every day that will make me stronger. I hope you can follow me on my journey, and I'd love to hear about yours.