over the plateau ( I think :) )
Tuesday, October 09, 2012
Lost a few pounds again. Stuck with the plan. It was just frustrating for a few days. I get that icky low-garde depression once in awhile. I don't think I'm the only one:) It will set in and I have to do stuff/wait it out to pass. It hasn't been as bad as I've had in the past.
So no word on the job. Talking to friends and a mentor, hate when I start beating myself up. Get to far, "into" me and what I have, have not, can't, can do....Anyone else? So working on things one step at a time.
Buggy is doing GREAT!!! getting ready for Halloween:) have a costume to make. Geo from one of his programs :) , Team Umi Zoomi lol. I'm blessed. We've gone to pumpkin patches around here, from SLO to Solvang. The gas prices have kinda put a damper on our trips. And honestly time at school too:)
I know God will give me a position in his time, when I'm really ready. I think I am NOW, BUT a girlfriend just got this great position, she has her 1.3 year old daughter in childcare from 7:45 am to 4:45pm. She has her mom take A and pick her up. I think I am ready now, however honestly I feel anxious thinking about having Bugs in care like that. 5 days a week, that is a long time to be away, I can't be a good mom with that schedule. I know I would be tired, cranky and resentful. And it would come out at everyone around me.
So I will get the position when I can handle it.
This is an all over the place blog,