I like to make little mini-goals to keep myself interested and motivated in losing weight and living a healthier lifestyle. Losing weight is, of course, one great motivator but it's numbers on a scale and at the end of the day not so exciting. I mean it's not like you can wear a name tag or badge every day that reads something like Today I weigh 254 pounds and last week at this time I weighed 257 pounds. You see? BORING!

Now, a bright, hot pink coat that goes to your knees, that is something to wear into the world. And it just so happens I have one of those coats. I got it for Christmas in Dec. 2009. Unfortunately said coat stopped fitting me by December of 2010.



But I'm determined to get back into that coat and button it comfortably by the end of this winter. I can finally put it on and button the top buttons but that's it. So I'll be a happy girl if this coat fits me before the weather is warm again.



I'm going to do that with the help of my new shoes.



Mentally, I'm working on being calm. Sounds simple enough but it's not been easy. I learned a breathing exercise that forces your body to relax when you start to feel angry. It's hard to stay mad when you are relaxed. It has helped me navigate what has somehow become a very chaotic and stressful life in a matter of two weeks.

I used this strategy on Saturday when I was stood up for a date, which was totally his idea BTW. The last communication was: I'm waiting for my ex to pick up the kids. Then nada. No phone call or text even the next day to apologize or explain. Now the old me would have stayed up half the night furious. But I just told myself to breathe and let it go because there was nothing I could do. Out of my control. I still haven't heard a word but I'm not going to contact him or ask for an explanation. I'm going to be calm and wait for him to explain to me what happened and decide from there what I would like to do. If he never does, that will be ok because, well, he's just not all that important to me at this point.

I spent the majority of my last relationship frustrated and angry. It's no way to live people. Trust me. Now if I had stayed calm and left the relationship instead of being angry and trying to fix things all the time, I would be much happier right now.

So there you have it.