Monday, October 08, 2012
I am getting referred by my primary care Doctor to see an Orthopedic Dr. for torn ligaments in my shoulder and a Neurologist for my leg numbness. Naturally this threw me into an instant panic of doom and gloom and then Philippians 4 came to mind-"the peace of God shall surpass all understanding". Just when things starting to brighten up my day-getting my education off the ground, buying the house, new department that is less taxing on my body, a new relationship that is growing, my weight loss, my fitness activity level increasing, I get sideline with negative information and a little body discomfort.
Living in the now, for a right now moment. I lost a cousin yesterday, got the phone call from home saying they found him unconscious face down on the floor-he died of cardiac arrest. He was only in his mid-forties, father to my younger cousins aged 16 and 12. I am reminded how precious life is, how I struggle sometimes to this date as an adult still grieving the loss of my Mom three years ago this month. A right now moment, because tomorrow is not promised. Thinking about that loss, and there are so many others, I do not have time for a pity party of my upcoming consultations from the Doctors. I have to count it all joy that I have insurance to be able to go and get further information on the root cause of my nerve and ligament damage.
There is not a day that goes by that I do not thank God for His abundant blessings He has bestowed in my life and I give Him all the honor, the glory and the praise. I also thank Him in advance for my direct healing-in Jesus' name, Amen!