Monday, October 08, 2012
I am taking back control of every aspect in my life. I have found that when I am unhappy with myself, I am unhappy with everything. I know this is not a "quick fix" or a "yoyo" diet again like all the attempts I have made before. It feels different this time. Before my end goal was to lose XX lbs or "be skinny" or fit into a size 6....While all of these goals are great, I have discovered that those are just bonuses to the big payoff! The big payoff for me is REGAINING CONTROL OF MY LIFE, MY HEALTH, MY BODY, MY MIND AND MY INDIVIDUALITY, finding out who I am again! I have been a wife since I was 20 and mother since I was 22 yrs old. For my entire adult life, so far I have put myself on the back burner to take care of my husband, our kids, work, maintain the house, and everything else that goes with being a working wife and mom. I love my husband and our kids so much...but something is missing.....ME. I have lost myself in all the hustle and bustle of life. There are so many things in my life that I want to do..so many. I want to run a 5k for starters, maybe even a marathon one day. I want to hike more, take a cooking class, go on a family vacation...etc.etc. I don't want to feel tired, I don't want to feel slow, I don't want to be moody. I want to be HAPPY, HEALTHY and FEEL ALIVE! I know the only way to achieve these goals is to dedicate some time to care about myself, again. This isn't a diet, or a quick solution. This going to be a process, and one small step at a time I will regain who I am. This is a life change. I have heard people discuss long term lifestyle changes..and before I thought that meant..wow your on a diet forever?! BUT I have now discovered what Lifestyle change means! It's not just about counting your food intake or how many minutes you log at the gym, while yes these two things are a very important part of it...they are not ALL of it! When people talk about lifestyle changes it means to change other things too. Like reducing stress, getting more sleep, trying new things, reading, exploring, discovering, finding the things that make YOU happy! Not only do we need to strive for a healthy body but we also need healthy minds and a healthy soul. It's only taken me almost 30 years and countless diets to figure this out. But now that I have...I have a new outlook on everything! It feels fantastic, I feel FREE!