Monday, October 08, 2012
It has been several months since I last made a blog post. A while back I ended up joining a group on facebook started by someone I met here on The Spark; however, I found that it added to my growing level of anxiety and I was less likely to stick with it when feeling overwhelmed. Sticking to one tool at a time makes sense for me, and since shifting back to solely Sparkpeople I have found myself more relaxed and infinitely more focused. I think there is a difference between support/accountability and proving yourself to others and while I know said facebook group was about the former - I always felt it was more about the second half.
I am getting in exercise again which is fantastic. I've even attempted alternating jogging and walking; however the pain doesn't allow for lots of jogging. I'm not speaking of the typical pain you get from jogging in your muscles after having not seen use. That's normal. In 2009 I broke my fibula and dislocated my ankle, and it never ..healed quite right. It's constantly swollen and I can't afford medical care to see what kind of ligament and tendon damage that remains. Jogging on concrete left me feeling like it was ..well, like it was trying to break or dislocate all on its own without any added force on my part. Sooooo I've elected just to push it with fast walking.
The excess weight on me may have something to do with it after all.
Life has been ..challenging most especially these past few months. Everyone in my household is either attending school or unemployed and we're struggling to make things work and get the bills paid. I am applying for jobs like you wouldn't believe; but, when you've been in the education system as long as I have? Well. Between this and other anxiety pertaining to health issues, I'm focusing on walking as a means to deal with it instead of food.
Wanting to keep it up. :)