Monday, October 08, 2012
Hi Spark friends, I think I last posted here sometime in June! For some reason, still unclear to me, I had stopped receiving email notifications from Spark and it just became too time consuming to try to navigate the site without those prompts. Then a few weeks ago the gods smiled on me and for whatever reason, I once again began receiving communications from the site. Yay! Trouble is, I am now out of the habit of posting! I have been lurking in the background for a while and still feel a bit tentative about jumping back in, but this is a first step.
One reason for my hesitation is a current lack of interest in food. Go figure. Food is what got me here to begin with, and in my present state, I'm not sure what direction to strike out in. After I finished my juice feast this Spring I bounced around with my eating trying to find some sort of equilibrium. I felt like a pendulum swinging from one extreme to another. Gradually the momentum slowed, but it has left me in a place where my focus on food is greatly diminished. And that's fine with me. I still eat a healthy, mostly raw, mostly vegan diet. My weight is up a bit from my juice feasting low, but that's ok too. From where I am right now, food is not the priority it was several months ago. It's fuel for the body, and the body is here as a means of communication.
So I guess you could say that my focus is less on the body and its ups and downs and more on the mind that drives it. Or to quote Ken Kesey, 'Who's driving your bus?' When I'm in my 'right mind' things like food and exercise seem to take care of themselves. My issue of course then becomes that about 99% of the time, there's a lunatic...my self-absorbed ego...driving my bus!
There you have it, my friends. Life is good as long as I can step out of the way and let it be. I'm looking forward to reconnecting with you!