First, thank you so much to those who have been checking in on me...some of you multiple times. It's not like me to be as absent from Spark, and some of my favorite Sparkers noticed. That's so sweet.
Now here's where the writer's block comes in. I don't want to write about my current state of affairs. I feel like I'm living in maintanence kind of, except that I weigh 20+ pounds more than a healthy weight. What I mean is, I'm eating mostly normal portions of usually healthy food without thinking too much about it, and I'm exercising probably 3-5 times per week without too much fuss - strength training and jogging, mostly. I've been feeling good. But, like I said, I weigh too much. A lot too much.
I'd like to lose weight. I went to an ob-gyn about my inability to get pregnant (or remain pregnant, I guess - I had one miscarriage for sure at 5 weeks and may have had another at just under 5 weeks, not sure because my hormone levels were so low), and he said that losing weight might help me with my fertility. I didn't want to have to go out and buy new size 12 pants for work. My complexion is not happy these days either. And my jogging is slower and even a long walk starts to make my lower body achy these days. All due to my weight. So I'm in a state of indecision. I know what I have to do to lose weight, but I know that the process makes me hungry and to not feel good a lot of the time, and that I always gain in back in the end, so it's so hard to motivate myself to get started with it again. And I've written all this stuff before which is why I didn't really feel like coming back and writing it all over again..except that I felt like I owed everyone an update.
By the way, the ob-gyn said he thinks Jess and I will have luck on our own, and to keep trying for a few more months. If I'm not pregnant by my 35th birthday, in December, he'll start me on clomid and if that doesn't work within two months he'll refer me to a specialist.
One other thing - I am switching gyms. The gym I'm leaving is cheap, and you get what you pay for. There are constantly cardio machines that are out of order and they don't have my favorite kind of elliptical, the weights are always strewn all over, the class schedule just keeps getting worse and the studio was out of commission for the past few months without ANY classes, the A/C didn't really function over the summer, and the final straw was when I went to another location of theirs a few weeks ago and was told that I could no longer visit that location. So I have 60 days left with this gym - I'm canceling just after a payment was made so I need to go through two more payment cycles, and Jess and I are joining a gym closer to home - a 5 minute drive (or 1.2ish mile walk) vs. 15 minute drive (if there's no traffic) and about 5 miles to the old gym. The "new" gym is actually in a dumpier building, but we tried it out a few weekends ago (for free!) and they have all the machines I like and told us that sometimes it's TOO cold there in the summer (a good thing - once you start exercising!). It's slightly more expensive for both of us in total since my current gym allows me to bring a guest so Jess never got his own membership, but actually cheaper per person since there is no annual fee. There is no Body Pump but I haven't gone to a Body Pump class in months anyway - there are other classes that are probably similar, but I've been just working out on my own lately. They charge $5 extra per Zumba class which I don't like, but I just won't go to those classes. The most important thing is that Jess can go to the gym more often - without having his own membership to the old gym, and with it being a little out of the way for him, he was only going once or twice a week - Saturday and Sunday - if even that (sometimes our weekends have been busy), and he really wants to work out more. He might even go to the new gym in the mornings before work, since he doesn't have to be at work until 9 (and I have to be at work at 7:45 and usually go the gym in the afternoon while he's still at work).