Monday, October 08, 2012
Being mentally strong is a key part of any training/ weight loss plan. Unfortunately I am not too positive today. I haven't found anyone to do the Warrior Dash with me yet, and while I know I can do it by myself... I am craving some adult companionship. It appears that I missed yet another sign up date for it so now what was $60 is $70 and if I spend the money, I will never hear of it from my husband. So, I guess it's out all together.
The stress of buying a house is really getting to me too and I am feeling so completely helpless about it right now. It's more a issue of realizing that I can't go back to work right now even if I wanted to and if I did, not being employable. Being a SAHM is a challenge and it's not like people give you credit for the 24/7 job duties. Sure, I can manage a calendar of 4 people's commitments, run 2 mom's groups, head one craft committee, write a monthly newsletter and attend 1 event or more for some other group while simultaneously keeping the house spotless, meals on the table, tantrums to a minimum, 2 loads of clothes a day and everything else that goes with it. But the first thing I will be asked when I go back to work is... so, what have you "done" for the last 3.5 years that makes you qualified to do something you have no work experience doing? It just sucks and the realization of it all is dragging down my positive attitude.
I just need to get over my pity party and keep going. I will be unemployed for at least another 4 years so I should just get use to it.