Monday, October 08, 2012
As I read through all of the wonderful and extremely supportive responses to my first blog, I am so thankful to be here and make these connections. I never expected to be blessed with the kind words and advice I received.
I was also thinking about my tendency to have an "all or nothing" approach. I can be "perfect" and plan, log, and prepare all my healthy foods. And I can be "perfect" in making sure I get my workouts in and, sure, I am rewarded by a good number on the scale and in general I feel pretty good. However, if I have an off meal or day or I miss my workouts, then I feel like a failure and say "screw it" for a while. Sometimes I'm able to say, oh well, and start over the next day. But I feel like I'm not doing this correctly when I'm not "perfect." I'm not sure any of this makes sense. What I'm thinking is just starting fresh and doing my best each day--I have to get out of the thinking that this is temporary diet change and somehow find a happy medium with my food choices, exercise, etc. It's not realistic to think I will choose the best, low calorie option each and every time I pick up my fork. There will be birthday parties for my kids and friends and family and, yes, I'll have some cake. But that doesn't mean I've undone all the good either. I always tell myself I'm far from perfect, but still hold myself up to these standards that are nearly impossible to meet.
So, I'll keep going and may not always have a loss each week, but will keep trying to live a healthy life and go from there.