Monday, October 08, 2012
I don't know if I have said this before but my husband and I are moving to Portland Oregon. He's all excited about the trip and I am not. Yes, it's going to be a new start but there are things that I'm not looking forward to.
Facing new people. I have to admit for the past five years I have been able to hide out in the apartment and not really face society. I haven't had to deal with people judging me because of my size. I haven't had to face the rude comments. On the down side of things, I have a feeling that I have become depressed because I haven't had any other human contact other than my husband. So food has been my comfort always.
Trying to find a job. One of the things that I really really want to do is start working as soon as I can in Portland. I'm going to have to face rejection though. I'm going to have to face the limits that my body can do. I may have to face the possibility that I can't work and will have to focus on my health completely.
I'm just not looking forward to stepping out of my comfort zone. I know I have to do it but right now I'm just full of dread with scenarios playing in my head.