Sunday, October 07, 2012
A month ago, when I went to get a treatment done Chuck who has been working on me for a couple of years said that he could feel a sadness about me. It hit me again this morning as we were going to church. We were driving by corn fields that have been harvested. Tobacco fields that are finishing up being harvested. But also the beautiful fall colours. The maple trees are so many colours this year it is amazing. The golden rods and the purple asters mixed with the reds and yellows should lift you up but I feel sad. It feels like this year has gone by too fast. I am so grateful for so many things but I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. I know I have and it is just head games within myself. But the passing of time, reminds me that time has gone by too quickly. I feel like I didn't get to enjoy as much of the outdoors as I wanted this summer due to excessive heat. Now I am busy teaching full time again and it is the little things I am missing. I feel like I am just having a pitty party. I will be fine tomorrow, but today I feel a little sad.