Sunday, October 07, 2012
I am back in 190ville folks. In fact I've been here for a little while now hiding in the corner. I know about 8 or 9 months ago I packed my bags and said good bye, I even threw myself a party. But after loosing my job I found myself at the buffet and cookie line again and running backwards. I even seemed to have lost sight of the gym. To those of you who are happy to find yourselves here I do not judge you. In fact I wish you well on journey. But as for me I am humbled by this experience. It seems that leaving this place isn't as easy as I thought. There seems to be no short cuts to the next town. This morning I passed on the pastry and coffee with loads of sugar and cream. I was so proud of that but when a family member wanted to hit the buffet I couldn't say no. The social factor in eating out is more appealing than the actual food. I love the time I spend with my family but once my eyes saw all of my favorites in one place I began to eat as if it were the last supper. So here I find myself again, saying, tomorrow I will get it right, tomorrow is a whole new day, tomorrow I will stock up on veggies. Tomorrow seems to be my ticket out of town. If only I could make a better choice today, tomorrow might actually be today.